Can You Still Grow If You’re Happy With Yourself?

Brian Cowan's in Phoenix with Frank Caliendo and Adam Ray. That's a crazy line up. Are you going to spin it if they let you spin it? Find out if anything spins. Look at this, look at this, look at this, Chris Leder goes, hey everyone don't go to this. It's such a dick. He said the first fucking thing on my thing, hey everyone don't go to this. Your fake feud with him is very strange. Don't make videos about each other. He did the podcast yesterday. It was the funniest thing in the world, the most insulting. One time we were doing the podcast and he was just lying there and I go, be respectful and sit the fuck up. And I started talking and he just got up and he slapped me in my mouth. I was like, I'll fucking kill you. And I came at him and he started going, trying to kiss me. It was like kryptonite. Yeah, he's a weirdo. Yeah. Weirdo. He's from outer space. Yeah. He's from outer space. There it is. Look, look. Wow. He smacked you right in the face. Funny motherfucker, man. Hilarious. And a great guy too. Just a good dude. I like being around him. He's fun. Yeah. These are my inner circle. Well, we're all weirdos, right? He's just, he's a weirdo weirdo. You reminded me of what Misfits were because I wanted to do this idea where I was like, I was going to do this thing for Onnit where we're going to come up with ways, funny ways to sell product. I thought it'd be a good way to recruit some comics and get them a job. Sit around a table and create like a marketing thing. And none of them, like all, like two of them got back to me. Everybody else is like, so I didn't have time. They're just fucking Misfits. Misfits. Like you can make real money, you fucking idiot. Nah. Too tired. Too tired. Too high. Got to show at the laugh factory in two hours. Yeah, fuck off. Can't make it. That's why you're funny. That's why you're funny. All right. Yeah, that's a lot of them. Because of the fact that they, you know, they're impulsive. They don't have discipline and they just, yeah. That's part of what makes them funny is that you're just, they're also wild. They're wild people. They're not good at like being disciplined and rigid and on a schedule that they create themselves. I can't like yourself. I would tell you that my acting, I was in Jeffrey Tamara's class and doing an acting thing and Jeffrey Tamara looked at me and goes, got a little self-esteem problem, huh? I feel like your second banana in general in life. And some guy goes, thank God. And everybody looks up at him and goes, well, it wouldn't be funny if he didn't, if he didn't hate himself. So I'll take him this way. Never forgot it. I was like, yeah. All right. That's hilarious. Yeah. I don't know if you have to like yourself that much. I think you should always be a little dissatisfied with yourself. I, I, it works for me. Yeah. I don't think you should be satisfied very often if you want to be good at anything. I'm fulfilled. You're on a path, right? You're on an improvement and growth path. You're trying to get better, whatever it is, but it's tennis, right? You're trying to get better at it all the time. Like you shouldn't, if you want to get better at it all the time, you got to be scrutinizing. You can't be happy about certain moments where you were really good and think that's you. You got to be thinking about the things that didn't go good. And so I got to fix that part. There's that famous story, whether it's true or not, but I think it is. Raphael Nadell had just won Wimbledon. One of the greatest of all time. You ever see him play like his athleticism, his power. He hits the ball so hard that the ball, I can't remember if this is, the ball revolves twice as fast. It makes it 20, so many revolutions as the average high level tennis player. That's how hard, that's how much spin it is. Like it's 80 versus 40 or something. And he got off and he just won Wimbledon. And he's back in the locker room going, I know, I just, I don't know if my grip should have been a little bit, I feel like it's, I think I'm going to change. It's still adjusting after he won. You have to be. That's how you get to be that guy. Yes. And as soon as you get to be that guy and you go, Oh, I got it. And you're going to fall off. That happens to everybody. Don't you feel standups that way too though? 100%. Well, we're talking about with Kinison, right? You know, Kinison, when he was on fire, he was longing for acceptance and longing for respect and attention. And he was going to take it. He just went out there fucking guns blazing like an animal. But then once he got it, he's partying with Bon Jovi and Motley Crue and they're doing blow fucking on the tour bus and, you know, drinking vodka till five in the morning. All that chaos, it's just, it stops being the same thing. Life is now you're celebrating the fact that you're the shit instead of you're desperate to make the best work you can make. Desperate to work. I talked to this, I won't say the name of the famous rock and roller who made a, what's it called? Elton John? May as well be. But the guy, Jagger, he made it, he made a, he made a seminal album, like an album that's a classic album. And I said, what do you think it was? He goes, I was just so desperate to be heard. I was desperate to be heard. And then you get older and you get rich and you kind of prove that you can do it and you lose. Bob Dylan talks about that. He goes, I don't know who wrote those songs. Like I don't, I don't remember. Like they said, they read his lyrics back and he said, isn't that something? Like who did that? Not me. I don't know. I can't do that anymore. That's a, that's a, that's a fear of mine. I want to be, I want to stay hungry.