Joe Rogan - Jake The Snake on Childhood Abuse and Addiction

Well also the life that you were living you could probably pull those dark thoughts out like other people Well, we said we can't I'd sit in a bar man and Write stuff down You know and next day I'd pick it up reading. Oh my god What the fuck was I thinking you know, it just horrified me But yeah, sometimes you can you pull dark stuff out of bad moments in life Well, you had experiences I mean, I mean just trying to kill yourself with pills or whatever the fuck you were doing I mean the darkness that you had in your life Like my sister being murdered and shed and my mother Mother was a 12 year old girl And her mother was dating my father her mother was My grandmother passed out and my father Left that bed and went into a 12 year old little girl's room and raped her That's me That's how I got started and then later in life Raping my sister did not know it Yeah, he raped his other daughter did not know it Always heard whispering You know people whispering and giving him the evil item. What the fuck's the problem? Then I'd get in the ring with somebody that it didn't knew my dad and they beat the fucking shit out of me Because they hated him because they'd seen some of the shit that he did You want to believe that of your own father Cuz you don't want to believe that do you I The girl that you met earlier Cody She is the first daughter of mine That I held in my lap She was 22 22 Before I would ever pick up one of my daughters and set him in my lap Because I was afraid I'd turn into my father I never wanted that I Never wanted to be someone that abused a child because I'd been abused and I knew what that shit was like I knew what he did to my fucking head and Getting right and getting sober Learning to talk about it Helps a lot It makes it better. You don't cure it You know, you never get over it But I can deal with it now. I don't have to go Medicaid When you're talking to these people that you're also helping and you medium that also have these problems How many of them have also been abused a lot a lot? you know what it's like to be sitting at a comic-con and look out there and there's people in your line and Your eye contact contacts a kid you look at the kid and they look at you and you're like Poor motherfucker you're going through it too aren't you? And I can tell it. I Know that fucking kids being sexually abused. You can see it And I hate that feeling because then they get up to the front and you're like trying to talk to him and they're like shut down completely And then the fucking asshole is next to him is probably doing the bullshit He's wanting my fucking attention man What chance do I have him getting any good attention? Not much Keep going back to the kid. How can you tell he's just feeling you know it you smell it you taste it If you see the fear you know and you see the way that the dad communicates with them Then you see their reaction. They won't look at you with their eyes, you know Really hard to get him looking you know really is and I Remember I told somebody one time that probably the one thing that helped me in my early life About going through all that sexual abuse and bullshit was I learned that a lot at a very young age the Reason I learned that a lot is Because it helped me to a safe place You know I learned to judge people and their attitudes You know I knew what buttons to push and what buttons not to push with my stepmother I knew what was a safe place and if there were keywords that come out from her I knew to fucking go hide I had to start reading this shit Then I had to start coming up with storylines and stuff to get me out of shit So I wouldn't be put into the position to get gotten again When you're learning that shit at 12 and 13, but you're getting some fucking knowledge You know just have to go through it and I Don't know brother if there was ever a reason to Bring back the big one the gas or bullets or whatever hang I think hanging is perfect for anybody that abuse kids Let's make a public fucking thing Fuck five years in jail fuck you motherfucker put you dancing on the end of a rope That give people's attention You might stop some of it Yeah, I don't know how to still what would they do that would stop it completely, but it's it's one of the the most disturbing Characteristics of people that that's even possible Nobody wants to talk about the kid damn shirt Hmm because here's what happens to the kid or nine times out of ten They raise their head and they say something Then this group comes in this group comes in cops come in they say this that's just that well He's probably just exaggerating this that you have to go home with him. Oh Fuck no You can't put that kid back in that house. Right? What chance do you have now? right Or you end up in an orphanage where you're getting raped again. Yeah, who does yeah once Always share at an orphanage more than a predator and that's the problem is a lot of kids that get abused like that wind up abusing Other kids absolutely even what you're taught. Yeah Sandusky had that whole charity for kids. I was his whole like thing. This is not man. Yeah I'm gonna open up abuse children's home that way. I know where to go get one Also knew that the kids were damaged and they would be used to it. Oh Oh, you know what we what we call love it can be an unlikely thing, you know Sometimes a kid looks to get his ass kicked because that's the only type of love he knows That's true You're a powerful man to have gone through all this and to be able to express it. So honestly to everybody I mean that that that is an amazing thing because The pain of your experiences has not stopped you from expressing all of the all the the downsides of it But also that you've come out of it on the other end in a very positive way I mean you're a great guy to be around your funniest shit you you have amazing stories and you're clean now You're clean and help them find you in a room like this because there's not any competition. Come on Joe. Just me and you Lapdol 27 no That's amazing. I just want I really is I just want to help somebody else feel what I felt. Yeah, cuz I don't want them Should have to do the things that I did to quit feeling So I'll tell you man, it's a whole lot easier pick up cocaine and forget about it than it is to Go through counseling and go through this go through reliving it 25 fucking times You Know you go into counseling and they say okay. Tell us exactly how it happened. Do I really fucking want to do that? Why do you want me to do that? So you can just sit over there and jack off what what you're not on this Because that's what we're thinking right? What do you want me to remember it? I want to fuck fucking forget it. Tell me how to forget it Right, don't tell me how to remember it. I got it down What was ultimately what was ultimately the thing that allowed you to stay clean when you had faltered? Five or six times whatever it was what was ultimately the thing that allowed you to get past all this and just Embrace sobriety and being healthy. I think it was just Realizing that I wasn't going to fail this time And that came from Dallas not giving up on me