4 years ago
DMT feels like, ready? Come on in. Do, do. You step over this chasm, the door shuts, and then it opens. And then you just fucking go. It's like getting shot through a cannon of geometric patterns. And what I remember is the beginning of it literally being like the beginning of a ride. Like it slowly exposed itself. Initially you have blinders on, and it's colored like a yellow jacket B. Like yellow and black. That's what I remember. Like intensely strong. Yellow and black that's moving. Like sort of spiraling, but it's square. It's very square, and it's essentially giving you like a little bit of a slow fucking before it goes after you. It's like, here, come on. I'm just gonna give you a little kiss. It's like massaging your shoulders, like shooting you down this pipe. This crazy squared off pipe, and then boom into the big thing. And the beginning of it was so like, holy shit. Like what am I looking at? That you think there couldn't be anything stranger in the world until it lets you out at the bottom. Until boom. And you think that's as crazy as it gets. And then as you go deeper in, it shows you something crazier. And it shows you that there's no end. And it also connects you to such overwhelming evidence of things being far more fantastic than you could ever be aware. Just overwhelming evidence. Just the fact that you could personally, with your eyes, ever experience what you're seeing. That it could be possible. Even if it's a hallucination. It is still happening. You're still seeing this. And this very experience should be impossible. It's too alien. It's too beyond the imagination. It's too beyond anything I could have concocted based on the context of the life that I've lived. It's impossible. And then they started singing, I love you 600,500 thousand times. Look at this. And they would say like, look at this. And show you these fucking things that were impossibly beautiful. I remember crying. Because the things they were showing me were so beautiful. And they kept singing like a little child. The way a child would tell you they love you. Like, I love you 600,500,000 times. Look at this. But that childish love to it was a big theme of it. This repeating that, I love you 600,500,000 times. Like if you tell a kid they love you, they go, I love you 100 times. And he's like, I love you a million times. I love you 600,500,000 times. They would say something crazy like that. And that's what this thing was saying. And then just showing. And I don't even think it was 600,500,000 times. That's like my interpretation of it. Because you're not hearing real words. You're just getting like this really clear intent that seems to be talking to you. But you don't know how it's talking to you. It's not like you're seeing it on a wall. Like you're reading it. It's somehow or another putting those words in your head. So I'm saying six million, five hundred thousand times. But it was really just that sort of an interpretation of like a childish, pure love. They're not trying to be your girlfriend. They're not trying to get a job. They're not trying to get you to give them money. They're just this is pure love, this pure love without any context at all. And just a series of beautiful, fantastic visions that you're trying to grab. You're trying to hold on to, but you can't. The way I described is like standing in the middle of a river of fish that are going a thousand miles an hour. And you're just trying to grab them. There's no way. There's no way. But you recognize what you're seeing when you're seeing it, but you can't even hold on to it because a new one's coming. And a new one is so much more crazy than the one you just saw. And then boom, a new one's there. And they're infinite and they never end. They keep going until the drug wears off. And as the drug wears off, there was, you know, like the love you thing was still going on. But there was also like a lot of we'll see you later. Bye. There's like like a bye bye. Bye bye. Like letting you know they had a good time. And then, you know, we'll see you some other time when you're ready. We're here. Wow. Wow. How do you go back to reality after? How do you get a fear factor after that?