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Jelly Roll is a singer, rapper, and songwriter. His latest album is "Beautifully Broken" is out now. www.jellyroll615.com https://jellyroll.lnk.to/beautifullybroken https://x.com/JellyRoll615

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0:09Jelly Roll’s transformation: losing 300+ pounds, faith, and a practical approach to food addiction
9:59Breaking food addiction: keeping promises, asking for help, and cutting sugar
19:57Weight-loss journey: bloodwork, insulin, metformin/TRT, and binge-eating tools

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the joe rogan experience train by day joe rogan podcast by night all day

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i just really feel like you might have a chance here to like really help some

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people that were

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big you know what i mean like that in this pod we might have a chance to like a

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million percent

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so i brought a bunch of notes about what i went through so don't don't look at

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me like a super

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nerd today but i want to make sure i got my i want to help people dude i just

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man i never thought i'd

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lose this way like a dude with notes especially a dude who lost 300 fucking

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pounds let's go baby

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let's go look at you dude i feel great yo you should feel great i feel really

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really good dude

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you're a totally doing human being it is man well you know what's crazy i don't

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want to get super

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spiritual out the gate but i will because i think god wants me to right now

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because you're saying that

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there's a scripture in the bible that says uh in christ all things are a new

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creation

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which i thought was interesting because it didn't talk about restoring the old

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it says that in god we are a completely new creation you know what i mean so

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like i i was

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looking at it at first like i'm restoring my heart but then when you're saying

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that i'm like no i didn't

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restore my heart i got a whole new heart this is a brand new heart joe you know

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what i mean yeah it

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might be cloaked as the old one but god touched it it's a whole new heart baby

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well it's a different

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heart every seven years doesn't every cell in your body get replaced by new

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cells isn't that what the

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number is that's crazy and it happens on our sponsor perplexity and find out

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that's nonsense but i think

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that's true i think that's what happens so you do have a chance to be a new

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human being and think that

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it would happen on a holy number like it's a myth god damn it no shit every

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seven years is a myth

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uh different cell types have very different lifespans and some last a lifetime

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i think neurons last a

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lifetime seven year figure is a rough average estimate of cell age okay so it's

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not a total myth

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not a fixed cycle where everything is swapped out all at once some tissues uh

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renew very fast while

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others renew slow slowly or hardly at all which averages out to several years

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if you look at all

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the cells together so intestinal lining cells renew every two to five days wow

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stomach lining turns over

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roughly every two to nine days skin surface cells replace roughly every few

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weeks um liver cells are

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typically renewed on time scales of many months up to a few years bone cells

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take up to a decade to fully

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remodel the skeleton muscles and cells anyway cells are changing all the time

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all the time it's constantly

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renewing baby yeah feels good man a whole different human we were talking about

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it when i first came to

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your club i couldn't even walk all the way up the steps without stopping like

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every seventh step and

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today was my um me and cam did my first 10k yesterday we did a little bit over

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did six five

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so today was recovery run day i did two and a half miles just having a

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conversation with you while

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you're swinging kettlebells i was like look at who i am joe i'm a whole new guy

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yeah just

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chilling doing two and a half miles on a treadmill just watching the yeah the peter

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yawn fight again

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and you you love again you had a nice pace you're a little casual doing it feel

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good yeah you could

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tell you've been working you know it's not like a new thing your body's acclimated

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to it you could

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really tell it's like and i heard tony robbins once say that we grossly um overestimate

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what we can

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do in a year and we underestimate what we can do in a decade and for people

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that might be listening to

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this that are dealing with severe obesity i want to give you this game you will

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grossly

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overestimate what you can do in 90 days but underestimate in what you can do in

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a year

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when it comes to your health like it was right around my 30 i turned 41 three

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days ago and it was

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right around my 39th birthday that i started really considering taking the step

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to try to make a major

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change in my life and i thought about it around my birthday because i knew my

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next one was 40

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you know what i mean and i was like i don't think i've ever met a 500 pound 40

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year old

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they don't you know around very often usually that's when they it's about it

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off no that's when

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it and it felt like i'd already cheated the game i'd had multiple heart issues

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you know um and i was

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like man i should i should really start trying to figure this out i felt like i

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could feel myself

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dying joe you know and it was crazy because i spent most of my life thinking

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that i when i get to

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this point or that if i never thought i'd get to this point we'll start there

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as far as success

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but even your hands look smaller you have new hands i've had to change my aura

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ring size five

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times in this process i've literally i've changed clothes for two years

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straight i'm looking at your

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hands i'm like he has different size hands it's crazy everything dude i haven't

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seen you in how

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long it's been at least a year and a half it's been a year and a half we did

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the pod i was i was i was in

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this pod bragging about being 420 pounds because i'd lost 120 pounds and i was

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in here excited about

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those 120 you know and i would have never guessed it i've lost uh ilia taporia

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since then you know

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what i'm saying i've lost a whole nother it's a whole nother when my chef said

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it best he said when

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charles oliveller uh fell off of michael chandler's back that was what you lost

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in the last since the

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last time you've seen joe be like if a michael chandler just jumped off your

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shoulders crazy

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it's crazy joe it's crazy when i go uh walk with my dog i put a 45 pound plate

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on a pack

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and when i get done with the walk i take it off i'm like whoo that ain't shit

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you were walking around

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with an extra 300 fucking pounds cam said this yesterday was so funny he said

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he said you know

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why you're inspiring so many people he said think about how much david goggins

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inspired people because

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he went from 300 pounds to getting in shape he said and you've lost david goggins

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at his biggest i'd

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never even thought of it that way yeah i was like right wow i was like yeah

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that's a whole you lost a

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hold david goggins dude my surgeon said i have 35 pounds of skin on me now wow

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i mean you've seen it i

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showed you yeah i showed you my stuff but it's like it's crazy dude that's

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great just 30 pounds

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pounds five pounds of extra skin just extra skin that's crazy it's just hanging

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off the front of me

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right now whoo somebody said doesn't that hurt i was like not as bad as the 500

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that was hanging i'll

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take these 35 over that all day dude way way fair exchange so what was you you

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knew you were doing

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bad you knew your body was not it was not going to be able to function at that

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weight for very much

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longer and so what was the pivotal moment where you made this decision here's

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this is good this is why i

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wanted to do this with you thank you for letting me have this space because

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this is what i want people

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to hear is that every time i thought i had a critical moment it was a it was an

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emotional moment

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so i'd get all fired up i've been trying to lose this weight my whole life and

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i and i'd yo-yo 50 70

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pounds down go back up me and my my nutritionist and laurels were looking at

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notes yesterday i spent most

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of 2022 between 480 and 560 pounds like that year that's how much i fluctuated

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just a year up and down

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crazy you know so it's like i was just such a so when i sat down to try to lose

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it this time i said

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i'm gonna take a different approach i'm gonna really take my time with it and i'm

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gonna think

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about what i'm doing and be intentional i'm not gonna let it be an emotional

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thing where you just

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jump up and go i'm gonna go running today and do to do and i was like let me

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let me figure this out

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and clearly i've dealt with drug addiction so i was like maybe there's

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something here like how come

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um i actually have this in my notes overeating wasn't a failure of willpower

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for me it was a

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biological loop that i didn't know how to interrupt that's a good way to put it

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you know what i mean

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the problem with food addiction as opposed to every other addiction is that you

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have to keep doing the

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thing you're addicted to it's the only one and it's everywhere yeah not that

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crack isn't everywhere

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and heroin isn't everywhere but it's not i've never there's not heroin on this

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table you know what i'm

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saying there's a cookie on here somewhere probably there has been yeah but food

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is something that you

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need to sustain you to keep alive like imagine if you were a gambling addict

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but you had to

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play a few hands of blackjack every day every day that's crazy yeah like you

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had to like you got

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to play at least two day alive yeah so stay alive you can imagine i started and

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with that mentality i

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said well the first thing i'll do is let me you know how can i cut back how

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much i'm eating and less

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less eating periods but the first thing i did was started um every time i said

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i was going to lose

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the weight joe i said i lied to myself we talked about this i would tell myself

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i'm going to do this i'm

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going to go do that and then i'd go tell my family that so the lie started with

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me though you know

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there's there's a big person listening to this right now or a drug addict or

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somebody who wants

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to change some part of their life that right now is going i'm gonna start next

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monday you know or

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i'm gonna start friday or i'm gonna start they have a start date they you know

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they've and then

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that monday comes and they never do it i told you i was like every other fat

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fuck even when i finally

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did it on friday i was like monday i'm waking up and changing my life and i was

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like but i had an

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idea i was like i'm not cutting out food i'm not dealing with nothing crazy i'm

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gonna do two small

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things first i'm gonna cold plunge because i've been watching dana white do it

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and it seems to be

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working for him that's how just naive i was to the whole thing at first i was

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like dana's cold

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plunging he got in shape i was like and i reached out to gary immediately like

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right around that

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39th birthday i reached out to gary brecca and i just sent a message to brecca

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blind that said do

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you work with fat people because i hadn't seen a real case study of fat people

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yet and lucky for me

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alina um um their daughter him and sage's daughter was a country music fan so

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she comes in like you ever

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heard of jelly roll and they're like no she's like you got to listen to this

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song and then you got to

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help them so gary called and gary was like and i said gary i'm gonna start but

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he said just start

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by trying to get 10 000 steps a day and get in a cold plunge i'm like dude i'm

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520 something pounds

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gary 10 000 steps a day is crazy talk but i got in the cold plunge for six

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minutes and i would go for

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a half mile walk that first monday comes joe it is pissing rain pissing rain i

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mean cats and dogs dude

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and i wake up and i'm like shit and i've been studying about lying to yourself

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that when you tell

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yourself you're gonna do something and you don't do it your body then starts to

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know that you don't

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mean what you say so now when you tell your body do something your body looks

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at you like bitch you

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ain't never meant what you said to me right you've never followed through what

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do you think i'm gonna

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run because you tell me to run dude you lie to me all the time and i was in

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that concept and i came

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out that morning dressed up in my stuff and i was like man that rains pretty

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hard and my family

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and this wasn't them being a lack of support joe this was just i think this was

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me lying to them for so

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many years you know that they wanted to save me my shame again and my

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embarrassment and they go

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it's okay i think my wife's like it's okay papa um or but my daughter was like

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um just wait till the

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rain quits or do it on the treadmill or something but in my mind i was like no

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i'm going outside you

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know and i was like i'm done lying to y'all and i'm done lying to me i told y'all

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i was gonna go do

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this walk and i'm gonna do this walk

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i didn't want to get emotional this early

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but i'm good

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there's nothing wrong with emotions brother

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i'm coming

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i'm coming back from that walk

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and i'm coming up my driveway it's up a big hill

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i'm bringing in camel too it's a huge hill and i'm coming up the driveway to

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the hill

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and all my family's out there

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cheer me on

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clapping

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hands up

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i'd done nothing

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but lie to them for years about this weight

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i'd done nothing

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i'd never proved to them

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that i was going to change or that i'd be a man of my word in any regard

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they had every reason

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not to go out there and cheer me on

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and that was like

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a big moment

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that was the moment

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you know

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where i was like damn

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and i realized that in addiction

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that uh

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in addiction

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the family will

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kind of cater to the addict

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it's nature

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you know like if um

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somebody in your family was a drug addict

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you would you would help with their kids

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or you would you know

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you would you would feel

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a need to help

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in their absence

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it's what we do as a family

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it's human nature

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and um

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i realized then how much my addiction

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had been hurting his family

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you know how much that

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my sex life with my wife was horrible

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dude i married a fucking big titty

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blonde beautiful woman dog

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you know what i mean

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like i married the kind of woman

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that makes you smile when you're crying

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you know um

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and i couldn't

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i couldn't even get aroused

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i was so big

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i mean i was having to play

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i was having to play twister to have sex

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left foot here

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right foot in the x

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you know are we are we in there yet

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tell me if you feel something

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i mean it was bad

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you know

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my daughter

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i think about my son

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um

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you know my brother would have to go

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throw football with him

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i was too big to throw the football

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and i was like these

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that's what my addiction has done

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to these people

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and here they are cheering for me

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oh dude we're turning up

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we're fucking we're

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we're gonna figure this out

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so then i knew it was a mental thing

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and i read a book called the fox

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the horse

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the mole and the boy

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you ever heard of this book

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no

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it's a children's book

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jamie if you don't mind pulling it up

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because it's um

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it's just it's just

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it's somebody kind of recreated

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winnie the pooh

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but for our kids you know

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and it was a children's book

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and i opened it up

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and it has a moment where it goes

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yeah yeah the boy

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the fox

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oh i have seen this

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yeah

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you want to talk about

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a seven minute read

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that will change your life

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but there's a quote in there

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that goes

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i forgot if it was the mole

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but the

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the fox or something

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looks at the horse

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and goes

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what's the hardest thing

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you've ever done in your life

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and the horse goes

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ask for help

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hmm

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yeah

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it's just all these like

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really cool little things

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but when he said

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ask for help

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i was like wow

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i need to ask for help

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it's like whenever i was addicted to drugs

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and i had to walk in that room

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for the first time

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and go i don't have control

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so um

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i called a company called on site

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that does uh therapy

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and um

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i went and spent

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two weeks with a lady named mary b

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who wrote the curriculum

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for food addiction in the world

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like she is a

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80 something year old woman

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with glasses

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sweet soul of a woman

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and we locked in a cabin

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and she said

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we're gonna figure out

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what this is

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and i spent

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i'd say maybe two or three weeks

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in this cabin

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with this sweet old woman

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and it was like uh

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no phone

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out in the woods

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i walked every day

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i played with the horses

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i mean i just

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went laid in grass

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and um

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it really took me

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all the way back

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through all my years

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and it was the first time

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that i didn't just try to rush

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to lose the weight

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i tried to figure out

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what why i was carrying the weight

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you know

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and that's whenever i figured out

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that i that that overeating for me

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wasn't a failure of a discipline

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i'm a pretty disciplined guy

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it was just a biological thing

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i hadn't learned how to interrupt

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i've been doing it my whole life

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it had been my constant go-to for stress

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it had been

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it was everywhere all the time

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i was eating for

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i had to start figuring out

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what i was actually hungry for

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you know like

15:18

when we talk about obesity joe

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there's groups

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like

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if you're 340 pounds here

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330 pounds here

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you know

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it's probably

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depending on your height of course

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you might be dealing with a

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discipline issue

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maybe you just like extra food

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we can make small changes

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and get that off

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you start getting over 300 320

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you start

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that starts being morbid obesity

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like there starts to be

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a real thing there

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you know

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and i'm seeing it more now

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because i talk to 10s 20s

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of guys that are over 500 pounds

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that have reached out to me

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like please

15:47

what is this magic yoda

15:48

you know what i mean

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i'm like

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i'm like

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consistency is the magic

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but one

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once i realized

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why i was eating

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80

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80

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here's the note i took

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from therapy

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i had my wife

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translate all my notes

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from when i was out there

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and it goes

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change

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first of all

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you change the way

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you think and talk

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but because

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80 to 90 percent

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of compulsive eating

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happens between the ears

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not the teeth

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so the average obese person

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is that big

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and i learned this from her

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is that

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they're only eating

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20 percent of what

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they're thinking about eating

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this is an all-day loop

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that's in a

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in your head

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it's like a drug addiction

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you know i used to walk in

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me and schultz laughed about this

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i used to walk in rooms

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and scan

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like i would walk in a room

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like the predator

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like i would

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i would do one thing

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like the terminator

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and be able to look you in

16:36

and be like

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there's a ball of schnickers

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on that counter

16:38

there's two m&ms over here

16:40

they have some lay's potato chips

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over there

16:42

like i knew my way

16:43

it was mostly sugar

16:44

all sugar

16:45

me and you were talking

16:46

about dude's sugar

16:47

well processed food

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i i didn't

16:49

you know how they said

16:50

so gary was like

16:51

get on a keto diet

16:52

or a whole food diet

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at first

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and i was like

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i don't think i eat

16:55

whole foods now at all

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anyways

16:56

i think i just eat

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processed foods

16:58

with maybe protein in it

16:59

you know i mean i don't

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dude i haven't ate

17:02

a piece of bread

17:02

except for thanksgiving

17:03

in two years

17:04

joe i was colorblind

17:07

we talked about this

17:08

yeah this is a crazy story

17:10

this is a true story

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joe

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i my wife will tell you

17:13

this is

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she laughs about it now

17:15

but i couldn't see

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i seen shades of colors

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like i general concepts

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but like hunter green

17:21

emerald green

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like what green's

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green to me

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i never realized

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there was nuances

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and prettiness

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and that some were

17:26

brighter and toned

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different i just seen

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them like shades

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so bad that like

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that's why i wore black

17:32

johnny cass was a lot

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of it but too

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you know i'd always

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have to ask people

17:34

does my shoes match

17:36

you know i was always

17:37

off dude i'd say

17:39

nine months into no sugar

17:40

i start i think

17:42

i forgot what it was

17:43

but it was a plant

17:43

at our house

17:44

and i come outside

17:45

and i grab my wife

17:46

and i go

17:46

dude how long have we

17:47

had that pretty purple

17:48

tulip there

17:49

or whatever it was

17:50

and she goes

17:51

what i was like

17:52

that is the prettiest

17:53

purple plant i've ever

17:54

seen

17:55

she was like

17:56

you've walked by that

17:57

plant for two years

17:58

what are you talking

17:59

about

17:59

i was like there's no

18:00

way we've had a plant

18:01

that pretty i didn't

18:02

notice it for two years

18:03

it was bright purple joe

18:05

i mean it was screaming

18:06

holy road purple

18:08

and slowly i started

18:10

looking around the next

18:11

few days and over the

18:12

next months i was like

18:13

i'm seeing clear color

18:14

i couldn't quit talking

18:15

about i bought coloring

18:16

books

18:17

my wife was laughing

18:18

this bitch used to

18:19

have to give me a

18:19

tata match to go to

18:20

court you know what i'm

18:21

saying and i'm in there

18:21

coloring you know what i'm

18:22

saying she's like what are

18:23

you doing i was like you

18:24

want to color and i've got

18:25

i've got like 300 color and

18:26

pencil set i was i was in a

18:29

deer blind with cam hayne

18:30

talking his face off about a

18:31

bird yesterday he goes i

18:32

didn't know you like birds

18:33

like that i was just i like

18:34

color he was like really i

18:36

was like yeah i didn't see

18:37

color for like 20 years i was

18:39

like it is that is so it had

18:41

been the sugar must have

18:42

been it must have been just

18:43

rampant inflammation through

18:44

your whole body massive lack

18:46

of nutrients it was and your

18:48

body probably was like fuck

18:49

colors let's just keep this

18:50

dude alive that's it yeah

18:52

yeah fuck colors just keep

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19:54

and it was I'd never planned on

19:57

living Joe like ever like it was

20:00

never in my plan like of life even

20:02

as I was getting successful I was

20:04

like coming out here and like life

20:05

was getting good for me and in my

20:07

mind I was like okay good when I die

20:10

at least my kids might be okay and

20:11

they won't be ashamed of me that's

20:14

how I was thinking Joe I was

20:16

literally thinking that way in my

20:17

mind I was just pushing like if I

20:19

could just get this machine down a

20:21

little bit my kids won't be ashamed

20:22

of me they won't have to be the

20:23

dad at least their daddy died of

20:25

obesity because he had mental

20:26

health issues but he was a cool

20:28

fucking dude man that did some

20:29

cool stuff you know and it was

20:30

like I never would have thought I

20:32

could have this kind of life I

20:34

never thought I could even even

20:35

when I sat here and talked to you

20:36

before in my mind I was thinking

20:38

man I probably never see Joe

20:40

again just think you know it'll

20:41

probably go any day for me you

20:42

know what I mean like my heart

20:43

could quit on any day I could

20:45

relapse and overdose I don't I'm

20:46

not thinking right most of the

20:47

time you know to like sit here

20:52

and look at you now like dog I'm

20:53

gonna be a 70 year old man with

20:54

you bubba you know what I'm

20:55

saying like dog you know what I'm

20:57

saying like it's gonna be cool

20:59

you was talking about my you

21:00

mind if I run through these for a

21:01

second yeah please well let me

21:02

let me preface this so because I

21:05

want to talk about the labs you

21:06

were talking about my

21:06

inflammation but I got with Gary

21:09

Breckin I did a blood test and

21:10

this is something else I

21:11

encourage big people to do and

21:12

your basic provider will pay for

21:13

it more often than not if you

21:14

have just like a standard

21:15

insurance just tell them you

21:16

want to run a just standard

21:18

blood lab but tell them instead

21:20

of just your a1c this is

21:21

important you want to see your

21:23

insulin level because I was

21:25

diabetic but I wasn't insulin

21:27

resistant so my diabetic marker

21:29

when I first got checked was a

21:31

six point my a my a my a1c was a

21:34

6.4 okay which is the

21:36

threshold of what being a

21:39

diabetic is the pre-diabetic the

21:41

last point of being a pre-diabetic

21:43

6.4 and I thought that when you

21:48

are when your blood work says

21:49

you're a pre-diabetic for 15

21:51

years whatever you know what I

21:53

mean like this is not gonna kill

21:55

me or nothing I've had yeah it's

21:56

what it said last time I'm fine and

21:58

then finally they checked for my

21:59

insulin it was over 40 Joe it was

22:03

like insane and I don't want to get

22:06

this it's supposed to be it's like

22:07

under five oh Jesus yeah so what

22:10

happens is when your body goes to

22:12

burn when you fast it has to burn

22:13

through all your insulin before it

22:15

will start burning through your

22:15

your your reserved fat so when

22:18

you're at that high of an insulin

22:20

level in your blood it's you're

22:22

having a fast so you're hardly ever

22:23

getting to the resort fat burn it's

22:25

because it's just constant insulin so

22:28

and this is where go one piece come

22:30

in it's be a great time to talk

22:32

about this so Gary goes hey man

22:34

your insulin side we'll just give

22:35

you a shot and this will change all

22:36

this and I was like cool send it

22:37

whatever I'll try it and then my

22:40

my wife's manager Mimi started the

22:42

shot did wonders for her but she had

22:44

the worst stomach issues I have a bad

22:46

stomach I started calling people and

22:48

going hey man how's this shot

22:49

working I was like dude we're

22:50

losing weight food noise is gone

22:51

you got to try it I was like what's

22:53

the side effect there's like one bad

22:54

side effect it tears your gut up and

22:57

I was I had so I had bad reflux and

23:00

you know that's the worst thing a

23:00

singer can have nothing is worse for

23:02

us than reflux so I got scared of it

23:05

so I called Gary and I was like Gary

23:06

I can't do it I'm afraid of it so

23:09

then I started doing research and I

23:10

was like well if I'm not gonna do

23:11

this I'm gonna have to fast to get

23:12

my insulin levels down a lot so I was

23:15

fasting and I was losing like next to

23:17

no weight and I was doing the right

23:19

thing and as a big dude that's the

23:21

most encouraging thing discouraging

23:22

thing is when you're actually not

23:24

lying to people because you know as a

23:26

fat person I'm I'm programmed a lot

23:28

like a drug addict like what'd you

23:29

eat today grilled chicken and

23:30

salads and I just ate seven Snickers

23:32

you know so it's like or I brush it

23:35

off like a big thing my nutritionist

23:37

would come in and be like did you eat

23:38

something last night after I left I'd

23:40

be like yeah yeah I just ate a little

23:41

bit not bad just a little bit a little

23:43

bit bad but I wouldn't quantify what

23:45

little bit bad was it was a you know

23:46

you know it's like so I was just in a

23:49

I I wanted to start being way way more

23:52

honest about everything in the process

23:54

and that's was probably the biggest

23:57

thing so I would not lose the weight

23:59

and I'm like I promise you Ian I

24:01

didn't eat nothing but what you

24:02

handed me Bubba he's like just stick

24:04

with it I just stayed with it stayed

24:05

with it and then Gary got turned into

24:08

Gary Brekka and took over the world

24:10

and I was lucky for me I bumped into

24:12

your friend a guy named Brigham down

24:13

here in Texas and he introduced me

24:16

you met Denise right then sure I love

24:18

her this lady's the lady who really

24:21

Gary started this journey for me and

24:22

I'll never be able to thank him

24:24

enough for it but she brought it home

24:26

and Gary probably would have but she

24:28

she had a brick and mortar and was

24:29

just easier to get to Gary travels the

24:31

world and I go to her and she goes she

24:34

runs my blood again and my insulin got

24:36

down to like 37 by fasting and she

24:39

goes you're against the GO1Ps aren't

24:41

you I was like well I made it this far

24:42

and I don't want to do it with an

24:43

asterisk now now it's just

24:44

stubbornness at first it started out of

24:46

a fear now I'm just fucking stubborn

24:47

you know and and this is where I don't

24:50

want to hide anything that I did do

24:51

because I think it'll help people she

24:52

said there's an alternative she said

24:54

if you took a fourth of a dose of

24:56

metformin which is a 2000 milligrams

24:58

what they would prescribe a diabetic

25:00

one let's say we give you 500

25:02

milligrams which is a real low dose

25:04

once a day until we just see this

25:06

marker go down she said it might take

25:08

a year because we're not trying to

25:09

rush it and throw a bunch of GL1s at

25:11

it we're like we're just we're gonna do

25:12

this really slow and that's what we did

25:14

in the first month I listened to her

25:16

and I was losing you know I think I

25:17

looked at Lee's notes today we were

25:18

losing like you know four to six

25:20

pounds a month then it got up to that

25:22

12 and 13 that number we were

25:24

looking for you know what I mean of

25:25

what we expect from a guy my size but

25:27

it was just that easy once now my

25:29

insulin so I said all that to give

25:30

you this oh I'm so excited about this

25:32

Joe my insulin was over 40 my insulin

25:34

two weeks ago it weighs the well with

25:36

Dr. Denise was 4.6 my a1c was crazy

25:40

right and that was just we've only been

25:42

on the metformin for a year in

25:44

November so I think we're gonna come

25:45

off of it now a1c was 6.4 it's now

25:49

5.4 which that marker is a three-month

25:52

average of your blood sugar like that's

25:55

a real number to move that much I know

25:57

it doesn't seem like a big number in a

25:58

year but that's like crazy my C

26:01

reactive was like in the sixes and

26:03

it's 1.2 now that's an inflammation

26:05

marker vitamin D while I was getting

26:07

sick all the time was a 28 vitamin D

26:10

is at 100 this was the big one too and

26:12

this is where you say are you natty I

26:14

say no sir absolutely not I'm a 40

26:17

year old male there's no way I was

26:18

going to be natty my testosterone was

26:21

one of a pre-juvenile child when you're

26:24

that big it was in the third like the

26:27

50s and you know it should be in like

26:29

the 750s yeah my free test was 2.3

26:33

Joe Rogan oh my free test you know what

26:36

it is today 149 I fucking would you

26:41

remember that problem we talked about

26:42

my wife yeah not anymore I'm walking

26:45

around the house like a tiger I'm

26:46

throwing over my shoulder like a cave

26:48

man and throwing her on the bed every

26:50

time I see her you know what I'm saying

26:51

it is awesome you know and it changed

26:54

these were and I encourage people to

26:56

like if you can get your blood checked

26:59

there might be something there you know

27:01

what I mean it might not be something

27:02

big you know I still could have lost

27:04

the weight without the metformin but it

27:06

might have took another year you know

27:08

what I mean if I would have just had to

27:09

keep nicking it down a pound a week

27:10

because I was just having to get that

27:11

insulin down so slowly and that helped

27:14

a ton and the test of course helped

27:15

bring because my estrogen was so high

27:17

my test was so low finally got the

27:20

estrogen down in the test up so the

27:21

fat starts burning I'd done the mental

27:23

work I'd started really figuring out

27:25

like why I was eating the way I was

27:27

eating because once I recognized a

27:30

pattern my three R's changed it for me

27:32

was reset reconnect re-engage so every

27:35

time I would go into my pantry to eat

27:37

something because I'm a binge eater I'd

27:38

stop my therapist taught me this that

27:41

on-site I'd stop and I'd reset so I'd

27:44

step out first thing get out of the

27:46

pantry I have no business in here bad

27:48

place for me go somewhere I'm safe

27:49

where I can connect near my wife or

27:51

somewhere safe reconnect what was you

27:54

in a pantry for what version of you

27:57

what storyline of yours walked in that

27:59

pantry was it 15 year old jelly that

28:01

thought he was a gangbanger and

28:02

thought he was a thug that was just

28:03

trying to be cool there was actually a

28:05

sad little boy that couldn't connect

28:06

with people is that the boy that just

28:08

walked in there try to eat some

28:09

cookies or is this a 35 year old man

28:12

a 39 year old man that stressed from

28:14

work but I tell you what you're not in

28:16

there eating the cookies for us because

28:17

you need them you just ate a great

28:19

meal you feel fucking awesome you know

28:21

what I'm saying like there's nothing

28:22

about that cookie that's good for you

28:24

and also Jason you know not a one

28:26

cookie kind of guy you know what I'm

28:28

saying you're gonna go eat the bag of

28:29

cookies you know and then then I

28:32

reconnect then I re-engage because

28:33

sometimes you go through all that you

28:34

go you know what though I was

28:36

thinking in there but I do need to go

28:37

grab the salt just go in there and

28:39

grab a salt and get out but where I'm

28:41

so programmed it's back to old

28:42

storylines you I walk into some I've

28:44

been going into the pantry to eat bad

28:45

for so many years I'll walk in there

28:47

forget what I'm in there for I have

28:49

to because if I sit there long enough

28:51

and it's like oh well there's a

28:51

there's some stuff that you can eat

28:53

that does nothing like you if you just

28:57

want to munch on something man get

28:58

some celery and some radishes those

29:01

motherfuckers have like zero calories

29:04

raspberries and blueberries were a big

29:05

one for me they don't have zero calories

29:07

they have calories but you could eat

29:08

like but it's actually good for you

29:10

bucket of them yeah before you get into

29:12

the hundreds of calories if you want to

29:13

have some like raspberries with some

29:15

salt on them or not some raspberries

29:17

rather some radishes with some salt on

29:19

them and some celery there's nothing in

29:22

that you just eat it and you don't have

29:24

to worry at all you're just getting

29:25

some fiber and some nutrients pickles

29:27

pickles are great pickles are another one

29:29

I'd get on to early like if you get

29:31

like good fermented pickles are actually

29:33

good for your gut yeah I did all the

29:36

cheats early so like but when I say

29:38

cheats like I was hungry so I go to my

29:40

nutritionist and go hey man just feed

29:43

me whatever looks like the most food you

29:45

know fluff it up you know what I mean

29:46

like just I want a big serving of food

29:48

because it's mine thing and the cool

29:51

thing is now I'm in a place where I'm

29:52

looking for density like my

29:53

relationships changed that much with

29:55

food now I'm looking like yo what is

29:56

like do I have to eat this is there

29:59

enough protein in this or can I only

30:01

eat half of it and not because I have

30:03

the the weird relationship with food

30:05

other ways now I'm just really feeding

30:07

myself for what I need right you know

30:09

what I mean like I'm actually have a

30:10

healthy relationship with food now

30:12

Joe like I look at and it's not

30:14

unhealthy in a way that was like if

30:15

you cooked a big steak right now like

30:17

you want one I'd be like yeah

30:18

absolutely I don't want to miss a

30:19

elk steak with Joe I'm down I'm not

30:21

weird if we went to dinner I'd eat

30:23

you know what I mean I just wouldn't

30:24

eat bread right there's just certain

30:26

things I haven't it's like a drug

30:27

addict thing for me it's like there's

30:28

just certain things I just can't do

30:30

no matter what yeah you know red is

30:32

the one bread and pasta are the one

30:34

why does it have to be the ones that

30:36

are so goddamn all the good stuff

30:38

dude oh oh so delicious but um I

30:42

learned how to make all the good

30:42

stuff better by the way like not

30:45

better but Larios is really so a lot

30:49

of my weight loss has come from like I

30:52

used to always hear you say that you

30:53

got into podcasting and talking to

30:55

people about stuff you were just

30:56

interested in like conversations you

30:58

just thought were cool and then I

31:00

thought about that's like the

31:02

approach to life you know what I

31:03

mean is like get like dig it do it

31:06

you know find draw inspiration from

31:08

there right so I was watching great

31:10

dig it do it if you dig it do it yeah

31:12

you know do it and I was watching

31:14

UFC one night which I'm a fan too and

31:16

I was this was six years ago and uh I

31:20

was like I wonder who's helping these

31:21

guys get on the scale you know what I

31:24

mean I was like most of these

31:25

fighters are poor not in a bad way you

31:27

know they're coming up I was like I

31:28

bet I bet I could pay equal pay this

31:31

was six years ago I was like I wonder

31:32

who it is and I got introduced to

31:34

George Lockhart okay you know what I

31:36

mean which famously him and Mike

31:38

Doche I think are kind of both

31:39

famously known for the guys who

31:40

created the weight cutting protocol of

31:41

today you know and uh I call him he's

31:44

in Georgia for the holidays he drives

31:46

up to Tennessee to see me we end up

31:47

hanging out George George and me are

31:48

buddies to this day and um you know

31:50

George is like let me find you a

31:52

guy and that's how he found me Ian

31:54

Larios who just came in to do

31:55

nutritionist he did a bunch of bully

31:56

bees camps but he's been with me

31:58

people say I had somebody tell me

32:00

this Joe they said uh well of course

32:01

you lost the weight it's easy you got

32:03

money you know what I mean I was like

32:04

buddy money can't make you run these

32:06

six miles no everybody who says that

32:08

is just making an excuse for why they

32:09

haven't done it themselves you can't

32:11

never say of course you did it you

32:13

have this just fucking do it just go

32:15

do it just do it and yeah it's

32:17

gonna be hard and especially if your

32:19

hormones are all fucked up and your

32:21

insulin levels all fucked up it's

32:23

going to be hard but you can do it

32:25

well the biggest thing too is stick

32:27

with it Joe yeah that's my heart y'all

32:29

it's like it's all that's why I said

32:31

give yourself one year not three

32:32

months because if I gave myself three

32:34

months I'd have been upset I didn't

32:35

lose enough weight it didn't go the

32:37

way it's supposed to go I went back

32:38

into my shame spiral we were talking

32:40

about this my whole thing was stress

32:42

overwhelmed food shame repeat that's

32:45

what I did yeah I lived in that

32:47

spiral you know what I mean and it's

32:49

like I've been working hard I'm not

32:51

getting it sad me I'm gonna go to the

32:52

pantry and punish myself you know I'm

32:54

never gonna lose this weight where it's

32:56

like if I'd have just waited for the

32:57

year and really said no man I'm gonna

32:59

go birthday to birthday which is why

33:00

when me and Cam ran on this birthday

33:02

of mine it was so important to me

33:03

because I was like two birthdays ago

33:04

was the first day I even thought

33:05

about changing my life you know and

33:08

even last birthday I was 400 you know

33:10

380 pounds and now this birthday I'm

33:12

I'm running a 5k with Cam Haynes you

33:14

know what I'm saying like dude y'all

33:16

can change it if you hated your

33:17

birthday this year just give yourself

33:18

a year you know what I mean you have a

33:20

whole different birthday it's hard for

33:22

people because they want immediate

33:23

gratification you know they really

33:26

want it all to happen immediately

33:28

especially in the society that we

33:29

exist in today where everything I mean

33:31

this is why GLP ones are so enticing

33:34

for people because you can get

33:35

immediate gratification you know and

33:37

sometimes you got to just you got to

33:42

focus on little victories these little

33:44

tiny victories today I didn't eat cake

33:46

that's a little victory you know and

33:49

momentum is everything it's like that

33:52

first day when your family was cheering

33:53

you that's what it's all about it's all

33:56

about you did it you went out in the

33:58

rain when you didn't want to you did it

34:00

you came back now you've got momentum

34:03

you have that good feeling of success and

34:05

that will enable you to continue to chase

34:08

that good feeling that's the good that's

34:11

the good addiction right I'm clearly

34:13

addicted to exercise if I take a couple

34:15

days off I don't feel right right if I

34:18

take a day off I feel weird I feel

34:19

squirrely like I got all this extra

34:22

fucking yeah fucking weird shit leave me

34:24

alone you know what I mean I get

34:26

weird off I get weird man I get weird I

34:29

feel weird if I don't do it and I know

34:31

people like that's horrible you

34:32

something wrong with you sure but it's a

34:35

good thing wrong with me I'm addicted

34:37

to a good thing right I'm addicted I'm

34:39

addicted to staying healthy yeah you

34:41

know they say they say addicts addiction

34:43

swap oh yeah yeah I've never had a bad

34:46

addiction fortunately but I've had a

34:48

bunch of addictions you know I've had

34:50

like video game addictions I'm addicted

34:52

to playing pool I was addicted to

34:54

martial arts but I've been addicted to

34:56

like things that are beneficial luckily

34:59

luckily but I'm scared of all the other

35:02

ones I know that I know it's the same

35:04

thing how much of that do you think has

35:06

played a part in your environment and

35:08

friend group it's huge huge because if

35:12

you can get around a bunch of other

35:13

people that are addicted to good things

35:14

then you're all just doing good things

35:17

and you're all feeding off of each other

35:19

yeah that's it's everything man you

35:21

imitate your atmosphere always this is

35:24

why I can't be around negative people I

35:27

just I'm too sensitive and I'm around

35:30

negative people first I try to help them

35:32

then I try to coach them then I try to

35:34

like like see the world through their

35:37

eyes and then I'm reacting to them and

35:39

then I'm like fuck man you're not

35:41

helping me I'm not helping you right

35:43

you're just dragging me into your

35:45

vibration and I don't like it and if

35:47

you don't want to change there's not

35:49

much I can do with this and so I got to

35:51

just ghost you yeah I got to separate

35:54

because you if you save a drowning man

35:57

you know sometimes you can drown

35:59

yourself right you know and there's a

36:01

lot of people out there that have

36:02

wasted years and years of their life in

36:05

toxic friendships yeah you know with

36:08

negative people guilty that's what made

36:12

me bring it up easy to do man it's not

36:14

it's not a mark on your character it's a

36:18

normal thing that people do and when

36:21

you're around a bunch of people that are

36:22

positive and that are inspirational then

36:25

all of a sudden you start holding

36:26

yourself accountable you like you know

36:27

what would David Goggins do right now

36:30

like what would Cam Haynes do yeah what

36:33

would Jocko do and then that that's a

36:35

good thing what would Rogan do yeah you

36:37

know you don't like it when we give you

36:39

compliments but we think about it I said

36:42

that because like I wondered if that was

36:44

for you because the biggest thing to my

36:47

note here is new playground new

36:48

playmates you can't heal in the

36:49

environment that hurt you yeah you know

36:51

and it's like I started praying for

36:53

new friends five years ago like on my

36:56

knees to God directly like God I've

36:58

done everything I can for every friend

37:00

I brought with me along the way

37:01

everybody who came with me can't go

37:02

with me everybody's not growing at the

37:04

rate I'm growing right I need new

37:06

friends I'm hanging up you know when I

37:09

was cheating on my wife I was hanging

37:10

around people that were cheating on

37:11

their wives when I was drinking tons of

37:13

alcohol and doing tons of cocaine I was

37:14

hanging around people doing tons of

37:15

alcohol tons of cocaine yeah so I'm

37:17

like I don't I want to be in I want to

37:19

change like right send me some friends

37:22

send me just send me some new

37:23

interests and then I'd start bumping

37:26

into you know I guess six seven

37:28

years whatever it was years ago guys

37:29

like Cam Haynes guys like Goggins and I

37:31

didn't realize it then when they came

37:33

into my universe it was just from a

37:35

distance in a YouTube channel like oh

37:37

this dude's fucking nuts who's this guy

37:38

screaming at the camera running all

37:39

these mouths you know who is this guy

37:40

that won't quit his job because it's

37:42

like the greatest bowhunter ever and

37:44

runs ultra marathons and like he's

37:45

refusing to quit his job the

37:46

Internet's like campaign and quit your

37:47

job Cam you know what I'm saying I was

37:49

like who are these guys these guys

37:50

are awesome you know and even then my

37:53

then that's where the little scared

37:55

kid of me comes out like oh man but

37:56

you know you can't do that dude you

37:58

know how far you are away from even

37:59

like being able to talk to a guy like

38:01

that or being able to run or like you're

38:03

just too far you know you even down a

38:05

bowhunting I'm a felon so I'm not

38:07

allowed to possess a firearm or be

38:09

within a thousand feet of one

38:10

knowingly so I've never been able to

38:13

hunt you know well I didn't think

38:16

about the loophole y'all know it the

38:18

bow yeah bowhunt yeah you know but

38:20

also then you're 500 pounds was like

38:21

what am I really gonna bowhunt you

38:23

know what I mean right but it was new

38:25

playgrounds new playmates you know

38:27

what I mean and I started really

38:29

believing that and like just finding

38:32

that my uncle always said if you hang

38:33

around nine you'll be the tenth so

38:35

just look at the nine closest to you

38:36

and even if it wasn't a friends at

38:39

first it was just me being inspired by

38:41

different stuff back to digging it do

38:42

it you know what I mean like dig it do

38:44

it and I got into this I was into um I

38:47

signed up for the two bears 5k because

38:49

Bert was my friend and I thought their

38:50

podcast was funny I never even met Tom

38:52

you know what I mean crazy I was like

38:54

this is a cool way to do it you know

38:55

what I mean like you know like yeah I'm

38:57

on the internet 500 pounds waddling

38:59

down a back road going I'm going to my

39:00

first 5k and me everybody you know what

39:02

I'm saying it's like it's just and I'm

39:05

like I'm ready and uh and I and I call

39:07

cam because we're friends by then and

39:09

I'm all excited 470 walking my first

39:11

two miles a mile that day or whatever

39:13

it was I ran a whole walked a whole

39:14

mile called cam doing a 5k cam cam I'm

39:16

gonna come support you and cam and

39:18

Philip Franklin Lee walked that 5k with

39:20

me it took us an hour and a half Joe

39:23

I mean listen I'm surprised cam did cam

39:25

could have rolled faster he could have

39:27

crawled you know what I'm saying we

39:28

watched both of his kids run by us

39:30

three times in jeans you know what I'm

39:32

saying and uh but that's like it goes

39:35

back to changing your friends like yeah

39:37

it was a guy that wanted to lift me up a

39:39

guy that cam cam used to tap me on the

39:41

shoulder when I was 500 pounds and go

39:43

dude we're gonna bow hunt one day I'm

39:45

gonna take you bow hunt dude and I

39:47

would remember thinking this

39:49

motherfucker's crazy you know what I'm

39:51

saying like there's no way me and this

39:54

dude are ever bow hunting you know and

39:56

uh we're bow hunting you know we just

39:57

came out of a blind this morning we've

39:59

been I've been down there bow hunting

40:00

with cam ran my first 10k with him

40:02

yesterday but it was it was

40:04

completely the the new playground new

40:06

playmates thing for me yeah you know

40:08

yeah it's fuel if you can get around

40:11

people that are real positive and they're

40:13

doing good things and they're excited

40:14

about life it's very contagious yeah it

40:17

is I think that's one of the really

40:19

positive things about the internet that

40:22

you can be introduced to the way these

40:24

people live their lives and you can see

40:26

videos on them you can hear them talk

40:28

on podcasts and you can realize that

40:30

people like this exist and then try to

40:33

find them you know and try to find people

40:35

like that and try to become like them

40:37

you can you can you could assume those

40:40

positive attributes and you can you can

40:42

incorporate them into your life it's

40:45

completely possible sure yeah and it's

40:48

real I mean I did it I am somebody is

40:50

listening to this right now and as crazy

40:52

as this is gonna sound I was you eight

40:55

years ago I was listening to the Joe

40:57

Rogan podcast it was the beginning of me

40:59

starting to be like what I put in my

41:01

body comes out what I eat I shit what I

41:04

drink I piss what I hear I believe yeah

41:07

yeah and then I realized I was listening

41:09

to a bunch of true crime a bunch of

41:11

negative stuff all my phone all the time

41:13

I was watching fistfights at bars like

41:15

this was my algorithm you know what I'm

41:16

saying you know what I mean my

41:17

algorithm was just completely fucked yeah

41:19

so it's like okay I need to start

41:21

changing my I need to find cooler stuff

41:22

to put into my algorithm things more

41:24

knowledge learning stuff tell me what

41:26

have you done with the phone thing so

41:28

the phone thing is interesting it's

41:30

been real interesting I got one now I

41:31

got one at the two months ago I took a

41:33

year to part of the weight loss I took

41:35

a year off of a phone completely well

41:36

you know I used to get drunk get my

41:37

number to everybody at the bar so I

41:39

would wake up after an award show and

41:40

have like 3,000 unread text messages

41:43

of people's like congratulations and I

41:45

was just like oh god I was missing like

41:47

big messages you know yeah that's a

41:50

problem with me yeah I got I got that

41:51

problem yeah I could imagine where you

41:53

look back and you're like the

41:54

president text me not me but I bet

41:55

that's happened to you where you're

41:56

like I missed an entire text from

41:58

somebody of that stature you know and

42:00

you're like dude this is crazy and I

42:01

was like I don't I think that I was

42:04

using it as another way not to connect

42:06

I have an avoidant personality like I'll

42:08

isolate or I can do it just right in a

42:11

room full of people if I hop on the

42:13

phone and I was just like man I want to

42:15

be more present you know I remember

42:17

sitting doing stuff with my son and

42:18

daughter and I was like scrolling

42:19

Instagram once again watching bar

42:21

fights you know nothing nothing that

42:22

was helping you know what I mean I was

42:24

like I'm just right I'm just like

42:25

completely disconnected another

42:27

really it's another yeah and with my

42:28

personality I gotta watch those so I

42:31

got a phone two months ago and I just

42:32

didn't put social media on yeah I have

42:34

YouTube because that's my app and I

42:36

trust you know YouTube is where I get

42:37

good stuff it doesn't give me 60

42:39

second burst of shit I don't need it

42:41

gives me long form of good stuff you

42:44

know what I mean I find channels that

42:45

I like really dig and it's like back to

42:47

new playground new playmates I never I

42:49

know I'm super late to the party

42:51

never heard of the outdoor boys

42:53

until last year okay whoa I've been

42:56

missing a whole new thing of life you

42:58

know what I mean he's back right he's

42:59

doing it again back ish yeah he took

43:01

some time off right is it I think he

43:03

felt like got overwhelming yeah the

43:06

success of his channel got too crazy

43:08

and too fast he didn't enjoy the the

43:11

pressure you know what I think he was

43:12

doing this is you want to speculate a

43:14

little bit together about this I think

43:16

he was doing the coolest dad thing ever

43:18

because he goes on there goes look

43:19

this has been a little overwhelming

43:20

for me and my family me and my wife

43:21

are out of this and frankly I got two

43:23

boys that want to be youtubers

43:25

themselves so I think I'm just going

43:26

to help them and I follow his son's

43:28

channel his son's got 3,000

43:30

subscribers he camps by himself like

43:32

his dad did he's 12 years old doing

43:33

solo camping trips dude his name's

43:35

Outdoor Tom so it's like and he's

43:37

been posting and his dad's on his

43:39

channel so I think the dad just built

43:41

his channel got big and was like dude

43:42

I think I'm just gonna leave this

43:43

legacy for the boys man I'll just

43:44

help them out but he's kind of been

43:45

poking his nose back around here and

43:46

there and he helped his friend out

43:48

that had cancer I thought that was

43:49

the coolest thing yeah what was the

43:51

name of that channel Jamie I don't

43:52

want to blow this they deserve a

43:53

shout out because that was really

43:54

cool my life outdoors yeah my life

43:56

outdoors and so that was a recent

43:59

video that they made yeah yeah he's a

44:01

very interesting guy you know I wish

44:04

he'd come talk to you I would if he

44:06

was interested I definitely have him

44:07

on I really have I watch a lot of

44:10

those shows that's one of part of my

44:12

YouTube algorithm is dudes who go

44:15

out into the woods by themselves this

44:16

is my new algorithm see this is me

44:18

trying to change my playground

44:19

because this is all about getting

44:21

into shape Joe like now I don't look

44:23

at that as a unachievable task I look

44:26

at that like next winter me and Cam

44:29

are gonna go hunt somewhere we're

44:30

gonna take a fucking tent you know I'm

44:32

saying we're gonna go out there and

44:33

get lost in the woods camp on your

44:34

back I think we can do it dude I think

44:36

I'm gonna be in shape enough to do it

44:37

you know you're probably in shape

44:38

enough to do it right now I'm only

44:40

gonna get better yeah no I mean I

44:42

watched you on the treadmill today man

44:43

you're in shape to do it right now

44:45

thank you yeah you could do it it's

44:47

uh that's a beautiful thing man it's a

44:51

really beautiful thing and just to be

44:53

out in the woods like that is it's a I

44:56

think it's like a form of vitamin that

44:58

people haven't recognized yet it's

45:00

medicine yeah there's something to it

45:01

I mean that sounds hokey and new agey

45:04

but I'm telling you man if I don't get

45:07

my time in in the woods at least a

45:10

couple times a year three and I

45:12

really want to do it a way more

45:14

often I just can't I just I'm just

45:15

too busy but it's it empties all the

45:19

bullshit out of my life the mountains

45:21

don't give a fuck what's going on in

45:23

your life or how many likes your last

45:26

fucking social media post God or who's

45:28

upset at you that they don't care you

45:31

know the mountains are the mountains

45:33

those animals don't give a fuck if you

45:34

just won the Grammy you know they

45:37

don't give a shit oh jelly rolls here

45:39

let me offer my vitals no sir not the

45:43

case at all there's no charisma out

45:46

there there's no cult of personality

45:48

there's no it's all it's just wild and

45:52

it's beautiful you always been

45:53

outdoorsman no I used to fish when I

45:56

was a kid I used to really love

45:58

fishing and you know then I got away

46:02

from all of it for a long time until

46:05

ranella took me hunting and that's when

46:07

I got that mule deer that one that's

46:09

sitting on the table right there that's

46:11

the first animal ever shot a bow or

46:13

rifle rifle that was a rifle and then

46:15

cam took me on my first hunt with a

46:17

bow I got a black bear that was your

46:19

first time a bear yeah God I'm trying

46:22

to get him to take me one of those in

46:23

May it's good and I want to do elk

46:25

next year bear is a good one because

46:28

first of all it's scary you know which I

46:30

think is good and there's something

46:34

about eating a bear that's just wild

46:37

it's just they're kind of fatty right

46:39

feels crazy yeah well not that bad I

46:42

mean they definitely have a lot of fat

46:43

on them they taste good they take

46:44

that's a big misconception I mean I've

46:47

never eaten a grizzly bear which I've

46:48

heard are pretty rough but my friend

46:50

Ryan Callahan just shot a grizzly

46:51

bear and he says it's delicious I think

46:54

the thing about a bear that's a little

46:58

daunting for a lot of people is

46:59

trichinosis and you have to cook a

47:02

bear like a hundred and I think

47:04

they're I think the number is 160 I

47:08

think that's what it is where you you

47:09

know you got to make sure that that

47:10

meat is 160 degrees you know so you

47:13

don't get any parasites because

47:15

trichinosis is rough I can't believe

47:18

your first bow hunt was a bear I'm on

47:21

my first bow hunt as we speak yeah and

47:23

it's for a deer and I could definitely

47:25

I needed to do this if I'm gonna see a

47:27

bear I am out there I mean stomach and

47:30

heart and stomach stomach and pants

47:33

well I think Cam took me bear hunting

47:36

because in Alberta the way they do it

47:38

it's they do it over bait so they they

47:42

set out oats and they use beaver carcasses

47:45

and all these different things so the

47:46

animals and people like oh that's

47:48

cheating listen there is no other way to

47:51

find these animals in Alberta there you're

47:53

talking about dense forest the dense

47:56

forest it looks like a box of q-tips like

47:59

you can't see shit out there that you're

48:01

not gonna find them before they see you

48:03

coming or hear you coming or smell you

48:05

coming this isn't this if you want to

48:07

hunt them you have to use bait or you

48:09

have to use dogs and you know that's how

48:11

they used to hunt them in a lot of

48:13

places they used to you know tree them

48:15

with dogs then people would shoot them and

48:16

people like well that's horrible too but

48:19

there's you have to control their

48:20

populations if you understand wildlife

48:22

wildlife biology and wildlife management you

48:25

you must control the populations of

48:27

predators and then you know like john and

48:29

jen up in Alberta where they took me they

48:32

know how to cook bear like really good jen is

48:35

an excellent cook and she she'll cook a bear

48:37

roast and she rubs it down and put it puts

48:40

it in a traeger and they'll slow cook it for

48:43

12 hours smoking the bear was it the bear

48:45

you killed you could eat that one we

48:47

definitely ate some of that too and

48:48

there's another thing that ranella taught

48:50

me um called bear candy which was great

48:52

it's like basically like it's like

48:54

chinese food it's like sweet and sour

48:55

bear it was really good yeah and then

48:58

cam uh brought over some bear sticks he

49:01

gets some meat sticks made at this one

49:02

butcher that he goes to this one meat

49:04

processing place but you bear is the

49:07

misconception is that bear tastes bad it

49:09

does not taste bad it tastes like beef it

49:12

tastes like a weird beefy kind of animal

49:15

you know here's a weird fun fact when

49:17

settlers or the pioneers first were

49:20

making their way across north america

49:22

they didn't eat deer they were eating

49:25

bear and they were using deer for skins

49:28

so a deer skin was worth one dollar and

49:32

that's where the term buck come from no

49:35

fucking way yes the term a buck comes

49:39

from these the price of a deer skin

49:41

no yeah they were just throwing the meat

49:43

away exactly wow how long ago was this

49:46

the 1700s 1800s they didn't know any

49:50

wow not only that you know all those

49:52

buffalo that people shot like buffalo is

49:54

like very expensive meat it's delicious

49:56

it's fantastic i think it's superior to

49:58

beef they didn't eat the beef they

50:00

didn't eat the buffalo they were eating

50:02

their tongues they were they were

50:04

killing them initially for their tongues

50:06

and then they would pickle the tongues

50:07

and send them to new york and people in

50:09

new york were eating pickled buffalo tongues

50:11

wow they were throwing away thousands of

50:14

pounds of buffalo good buffalo meat yeah

50:16

oh wow thousands of pounds and then they

50:18

started using their skins so buffalo

50:21

hides became valuable but it wasn't the

50:23

meat that they were after which is crazy

50:26

because they basically almost made them

50:28

extinct right they came like within a

50:31

hair's breadth of making bison extinct in

50:34

north america just by giving away tongues

50:36

well also because they they opened it up

50:39

to the market so market hunting was a

50:41

giant problem with wildlife in north

50:43

america so what what what that what that

50:46

means is they didn't have refrigeration

50:48

back then right so you needed a constant

50:50

supply of meat and you know you could salt

50:52

things down and transport them that way and

50:55

there's a bunch of different ways to

50:56

avoid the breakdown of bacteria but

50:59

essentially you couldn't there was no

51:01

fucking freezers you know and so market

51:04

hunting almost wiped out all the whitetail

51:07

it removed elk from most states you know

51:10

the states that are in right that have elk

51:12

wild elk right now are a tiny handful of

51:15

the states that used to have elk in like

51:17

the 1600s the 1700s it's all the

51:20

settlers came from you know wherever and

51:22

they shot them all wow and they shot

51:25

them all and brought them all to market

51:26

you know that was a lot of it and so then

51:29

they made market hunting illegal and then

51:31

you know they designated areas uh public

51:34

land and you know this is the teddy

51:36

roosevelt thing and what they did was

51:38

really an amazing um what what they did

51:42

is an amazing example of conservation in

51:45

north america that really doesn't exist

51:47

anywhere else is our wildlife management

51:49

and also our natural resources public land

51:53

management so we have public land in north

51:56

america where you can you could you could

52:00

apply for a tag you could get it like the

52:02

like we did with that mule deer we shot

52:04

that mule deer in montana we got a tag and

52:07

went out into the missouri breaks and then

52:10

we you know found that animal and shot it and

52:12

ate it and anybody could do that you it's

52:16

part of you being an american if you you

52:20

know fill out the right paperwork and pay for

52:21

the tags and all that pays for the management of

52:25

this land and for wildlife biologists and park

52:28

rangers and all those kind of different

52:29

people that game wardens that that help you

52:33

know keep all this stuff managed wow see i

52:35

didn't know you could hunt public lands

52:37

until recently whenever cam and them were

52:39

fighting back about the bill that was trying

52:40

to get rid of some of us yeah man they were

52:42

trying to sell off some public land it's a

52:44

fucking dangerous slippery slope and you

52:47

can't let that happen ever it's kind of like

52:49

freedom of speech man any infraction of

52:52

freedom of speech is a complete infraction

52:55

freedom of speech yeah so i mean it's

52:57

deteriorating really badly right now in

52:59

the uk i'm loving the outdoors though i'm

53:01

loving learning about it like even hearing

53:03

you talk i'm just over here like yes

53:05

ah it's an amazing thing you know i just

53:07

got my first hunting license yesterday you

53:09

know what i'm saying day before yesterday

53:11

so it's a big deal for me that's awesome i'm

53:13

having you want to hear my first big

53:14

amateur mistake i made sure this is a good

53:16

one i told you one of them but i'll tell

53:17

you why i didn't tell you because it's way

53:18

better i'll save this one for the air

53:19

um we're in there the first night and

53:22

it's like kind of it's not nippy but it's

53:25

like when the sun went down it was cool but

53:26

it was still you know i was so adrenaline

53:28

up the first night a doe comes out joe and i

53:31

thought i was going to shit myself i mean i

53:33

had to stand up i farted my stomach was

53:36

bad it was just so it was every emotion i

53:39

didn't think i was gonna feel and i'm

53:41

doing it with like the greatest bow

53:42

hunter ever sitting behind me and lucky

53:43

for us cam's a sweet dude so he's just

53:45

entertained by it he really loves helping

53:47

people get into bowhunting you know that

53:50

speaks again to who he is like to be who

53:52

you are and that'd be like me loving going

53:56

and meeting first-time songwriters like

53:58

i've never wrote a song and we'd be like

53:59

that's my favorite let me sit down and

54:01

show you how to start you know what i

54:02

mean which i don't necessarily feel that

54:03

way to be honest so it's like for him to

54:06

care but i'm sitting there and the next

54:09

morning we go and uh it's fucking cold

54:13

and i'm shaking anyways because i you

54:15

know i'm nervous and i'm shaking

54:16

because it's cold so when we go back

54:18

that night i bring my hoodie in case it

54:20

gets cold but i don't put it on and

54:21

we're sitting there as soon as the sun

54:23

goes down a little bit it gets cold in

54:25

that blind bubble yeah and i'm sitting

54:27

there like well you're also not moving

54:29

not moving if you were walking around

54:31

in the cold that's a different no we're

54:33

just sitting and i'm like yeah and i'm

54:35

like cold cold and i don't even think

54:38

about it and there now keep in mind

54:39

there's two does in front of us and

54:41

there's a buck maybe 80 yards away cam

54:45

said this and it's the most gangster

54:47

thing bow hunting starts where rifle

54:49

in rifle hunting ends bow hunting begins

54:53

where rifle hunting ends yeah the moment

54:55

you see a buck when you're rifle

54:57

hunting for those listeners that don't

54:58

know you just shoot it it's that easy

54:59

you see the buck you better shoot it

55:01

right then as soon as you get a clean

55:02

shot the moment you see the buck when

55:04

you're bow hunting that's operation

55:06

chill get them as close as you can get

55:09

them and find the right shot it's the

55:10

total opposite of rifle hunting which i

55:12

haven't rifle hunted since i was 10

55:13

anyways but um so i'm sitting there and

55:16

it's cold and there's i see the buck in

55:18

the back and i'm like you know what can i

55:20

ask you something yes sir you're not

55:21

allowed to own a firearm are you're

55:23

allowed to operate one no sir no so you

55:26

can't rifle hunt at all no sir i'm on my

55:27

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forever well this is interesting um i am

56:50

oh this is slippery slope for me i am up for a

56:54

pardon this year my paperwork has been sent

56:56

into my governor and he considers pardons in

56:59

every december so every day i'm just kind of

57:02

praying you know what i mean um but even if he

57:05

gives me the pardon unfortunately tennessee has a zero forgiveness policy for

57:08

violent offenders so i would be pardoned but i

57:11

wouldn't be um adjudicated what's it called

57:14

uh um when they um exonerated exonerated um i wouldn't be good with the charters

57:20

aren't completely gone so what i'd have to do is and this is my

57:24

hope is that my goal in this is that i want to reach out to legislation

57:28

eventually and go hey like if nothing else i'd like my run my

57:32

right to hunt like it's done a lot for my mental health it's done a lot for my

57:36

my physical health like it's been a being able to start going on that first

57:41

boat

57:41

these are little markers that i put on the calendar

57:44

you know when i'm 400 and something pounds and i'm like all right next year

57:47

cam said he's taking me on my bow hunt i gotta get there

57:49

you know what i mean like all right next year i'm not going to run that 5k in

57:52

an

57:52

hour and a half i'm going to do it in 45 minutes

57:54

you know what i mean like these are those markers so i want to go to them and

57:57

go

57:57

look i understand if you've ever raped somebody or killed somebody

58:01

but i think that every it should there should be some path to redemption

58:06

even if it takes 30 years put something unrealistic up there you don't can't

58:10

get a

58:10

speeding ticket for 20 years but like i think it's important for people to have

58:13

a path to redemption i'm a redemption guy and you know if god didn't just show

58:18

me so many paths you know what i mean then well i think it's one of the more

58:21

beautiful aspects of christianity right that it does offer you a path to

58:25

redemption like a true legitimate path where you can become a different person

58:28

literally yeah and people not judge you on the old person anymore judge you on

58:31

the

58:32

person i get it for the public safety aspect of it it's hard to know if a

58:36

person's

58:36

redeemed themselves i get that it's hard and if you make the wrong decision man

58:40

i

58:40

could i couldn't bear the burden of your conscience of that neither

58:43

right but then you do have cases and i know i'm not the only one

58:46

of people who have like even little things like i mean outside of hunting joe

58:50

it's not that i'm a big you know i don't have a

58:52

i just wish i could protect myself right you know what i mean it's like i'm a

58:57

million dollars plus a year in security i'd cut that bill in half tomorrow if i

59:01

had a

59:01

right to carry right you know what i mean for sure you know but um but at least

59:05

let me hunt i mean my heart's right i just want to feed the family and go out

59:08

and spend some time with the boys and do some population control if we don't

59:11

kill

59:12

them deer in tennessee they're taking over anyways you know what i'm saying

59:14

i'm sure you got a lot down there they're every not like these monsters down

59:18

here

59:18

but they're everywhere yeah well that place that you're at is a

59:21

particularly unique place cactus jack giant deer dude it's called hunt cactus

59:26

jack or it's um i found this out do you remember the old vice president from

59:30

here was called cactus jack no will you look this up jamie this is a cool

59:34

story so the vice president i think it might have been

59:37

during roosevelt's term maybe even or one of those

59:40

uh maybe teddy but his vice president was a texas

59:44

uh governor or something and the guy was famous because he's the one who

59:48

tried to make the cactus plant the texas state plant

59:51

so they called him cactus jack because of that

59:54

and then cactus jack yeah there it is

59:57

there he is look at him look at him dude he looks like a cactus jack

1:00:02

yeah jim nance garner wow he was a lawyer a long-time congressman uh he was the

1:00:07

one

1:00:07

who tried to make the cactus is uh the state flower texas wow yeah who was the

1:00:12

vice president to roosevelt yeah the effort failed in favor of the blue

1:00:16

bonnet but cactus jack moniker stuck with him throughout his long political

1:00:20

career so so when he opened this place uh

1:00:24

how many years ago the guy who bought it from him

1:00:26

was super excited he told me the story last

1:00:29

that's cactus jack cigar with two pistols

1:00:33

we could never get away with that right now in politics

1:00:39

i know right um but cactus jack he's uh but the ranch is great the guy who owns

1:00:44

it mr jerry was

1:00:44

telling me the history of it last night they kept true

1:00:47

texas deer genetics a lot of the texas ranches will have import genetics

1:00:53

and he was like cactus jack was big about making this a tried and true texas

1:00:58

ranch

1:00:58

and he's he is dead set on dying by keeping it that way this guy jerry that

1:01:03

owns it well it's like

1:01:05

especially south texas hunting white-tailed deer is like a religion it's a

1:01:10

religion yeah it's a big

1:01:11

thing for those folks they big deal and to to grow big deer down there and to

1:01:17

make sure that you

1:01:17

manage the genetics correctly like you don't shoot any animal that's under like

1:01:22

six or seven years old

1:01:24

and you know there's a place that i hunt in uh utah that does that with elk it's

1:01:28

like they a really

1:01:31

well managed place does that they make sure so like there's some places where

1:01:34

when they have hunting season everybody just goes out into the woods kids get a

1:01:40

day off school and

1:01:41

they shoot everything they can which is great you get meat it's great but the

1:01:46

problem is if you want

1:01:48

very impressive animals that are mature which is all also better for the entire

1:01:55

genetics of the herd

1:01:56

because these are the the animals that have lived a full life they've spread

1:02:00

their genes and then you

1:02:02

shoot them at the end at the end of their life so they've had a long full and

1:02:06

by the way when you're

1:02:07

getting an animal that's seven eight nine years old they really don't have much

1:02:11

time left well you

1:02:12

know they were telling me reality you're so right about that they were saying

1:02:15

some of them

1:02:16

they'll try to wait and let them have another year and they won't make it

1:02:18

anyways yeah they won't

1:02:19

make it through the winter sometimes i just you know they just won't make it he

1:02:22

said so they've uh

1:02:23

yeah no they're they're dead this guy's doing it i mean obviously i'm not the

1:02:26

case study cams to talk

1:02:28

about it because i've been on one hunt but the deer i see on my property back

1:02:31

home compared to these

1:02:33

deer these deers would eat those deers you know what i'm saying like these

1:02:36

those these deers would

1:02:37

fuck those deers in the butt you know what i'm saying it's like it just it's a

1:02:41

totally different

1:02:42

thing it is a different thing with but that's a very exceptional place so i go

1:02:47

i go to put my hoodie

1:02:48

on that's where i fuck up joe i'm cold in this fucking blind and i go like i

1:02:53

said cam hold my boat

1:02:54

i should have said cam can i put my hoodie on because cam would have been like

1:02:57

no you know what

1:02:58

i'm saying right but i was like all right and in my mind so i was going to

1:03:01

slide one arm through

1:03:02

uh-huh and i was going to wait 30 seconds to slide the other arm through

1:03:05

because i didn't want to be

1:03:06

shaking if i got my shot and i seen my buck across the field right but i put

1:03:10

first arm through and i

1:03:12

looked up it was like a movie joe all three deer in the field went right into

1:03:18

my soul and ran away

1:03:19

and i looked at cam i was like that was me huh he was like oh yeah they don't

1:03:23

like that stuff i was

1:03:24

like you can't never came back no never came back the sound is like they hear

1:03:31

everything

1:03:32

like 10 times louder than you do look at their ears their ears rotate and turn

1:03:37

and do this those are

1:03:38

antenna listening for predators no so they hear the ruffling of clothes like

1:03:44

what is that they were

1:03:45

like that's a human yeah that's like a fucking human and when they're down

1:03:48

there that's the main

1:03:49

predator yeah the main predator is us no they it was it was amateur hour at the

1:03:54

apollo dude at least

1:03:56

cam got a hook hoot out of i learned a big lesson of course too you know but

1:03:59

bro they look at you

1:04:00

too when a whitetail busts you they look you like it's a weird no it's like it's

1:04:04

almost like he but

1:04:05

when i say they looked right up at me joe it was like from from feed to eye

1:04:09

contact with me i was

1:04:11

like oh fuck you know what i'm saying i felt like a deer in headlights i was

1:04:15

like oh shit he got me

1:04:16

well people put felt on the rest just so that when the arrow slides it's not

1:04:21

making any sound

1:04:23

you gotta be real slow and how you draw back but it's something else it's like

1:04:28

rifle hunting which i

1:04:29

can't rifle hunt but we have a bunch of stands on my property and i'll go sit

1:04:32

on them just to watch

1:04:33

deer with my little boy and um you know that that thing will be there are two

1:04:37

football fields away from

1:04:39

where the deer are you'll be sitting up there with a heater on listening to a

1:04:41

podcast smoking a joint

1:04:43

watching a deer like about a gun i'd kill it you know what i'm saying right so

1:04:46

i showed up first day

1:04:48

with cam and i got my little weed pin in my pocket and as soon as we sat down

1:04:51

and i seen a buck from

1:04:52

here to a little bit past jamie from me i was like oh yeah we can't smoke in

1:04:56

here or talk i was like

1:04:58

this is real dude it's a totally different thing it's a different fear too like

1:05:02

you get excited when

1:05:03

you see one out of a blind from 100 yards 200 yards you know 50 yards 70 yards

1:05:08

but when you see one

1:05:09

20 yard 30 yards away from you and you're sitting there with just a stick with

1:05:15

a piece of metal on it

1:05:17

kind of you know what i'm saying in a string ultimately you got a glorified

1:05:20

that what came

1:05:21

right after the slingshot right you know what i mean and you're like this is me

1:05:24

and this animal

1:05:25

right now yeah it is the fucking craziest feeling i've ever felt in my life

1:05:30

dude i wrestled at

1:05:31

summer slam it felt like that it felt like when logan paul was going to jump

1:05:34

through the table

1:05:35

it was that feeling the whole time yeah this is it oh wow that's a big look

1:05:40

that was me really

1:05:41

shaking dude that's a big buck oh dude we had so much we're having a i'm having

1:05:46

to tie my life

1:05:47

that's a tiny little hole you see what i'm going through here look at him but i

1:05:50

just a lot you have

1:05:51

a light on your pins you have a sight light no sir okay um are you using a spot

1:05:57

hog what what kind of

1:05:59

uh i think so beautiful bird cam set it up for me cam must be a is it wayne is

1:06:04

wayne's name at the

1:06:05

bow rack yeah camp wayne i love you wayne shout out to wayne yeah you got a

1:06:08

spot oh by the way

1:06:09

that's a booner your your your bow shot just dropped me off um kickstand for it

1:06:14

though what

1:06:15

do y'all oh beautiful archery country yep yep yep thank you for that by the way

1:06:18

oh please because

1:06:19

in the stand i'm having to hold it on my lap you know what i mean so brigham

1:06:23

hit him for me and was

1:06:23

like yo while we're doing rogan can you just drop off a kickstand for jelly

1:06:26

yeah i dropped one those

1:06:27

hoyt has it set up so that they're retractable too the way it's set up it's

1:06:32

perfect you just set

1:06:33

it down it's perfect i bought 200 arrows and i put them 100 on my back porch in

1:06:39

a bucket and i have

1:06:40

like 30 targets in my backyard now and i sent the 100 of them on my farm's back

1:06:45

porch with like 30 targets

1:06:46

and now i literally wake up let my dog out and just let a hundred rip first

1:06:49

thing in the morning just

1:06:50

rip a hole hunter takes you like 45 minutes good exercise oh yeah and i only

1:06:54

have to pull them once

1:06:55

it's also the concentration clears your mind because it's so hard to do to hit

1:07:00

a target especially at a

1:07:02

distance you're when you know your whole thing is just everything's got to be

1:07:07

like coordinated and

1:07:08

sync and on that release and that arrow flies and it goes right into there oh i

1:07:14

love it it's a it's

1:07:16

i love it about concentration it's one of the only things i've ever done that

1:07:19

when i'm standing there

1:07:20

even over a target especially over a deer but even over a target and i pull

1:07:25

that bow back it's like

1:07:26

you said about the mountains like nothing in the world matters right now the

1:07:31

world goes away i don't

1:07:32

hear i don't even hear my inner monologue yeah all i see is that little green

1:07:37

pin on that target

1:07:40

fred bear had a great quote about a troubled mind like nothing nothing clears a

1:07:44

troubled mind like

1:07:45

shooting a bow and it's so true it's like there's something about how difficult

1:07:51

it is that it really

1:07:52

requires everything of you it requires all of your concentration you can't have

1:07:56

like distracting

1:07:57

thoughts like oh i forgot to pay that bill oh i gotta call that guy back oh i

1:08:01

gotta do this oh i gotta

1:08:03

do that you can't have anything in there and because of that it's like a moving

1:08:07

meditation

1:08:07

like it forces you to be completely present in the moment and that that cleans

1:08:13

the mind out you're

1:08:14

talking about moving meditation i was thinking about when you were saying that

1:08:16

even down to the breathing

1:08:17

like the importance of the

1:08:24

it's also you're gonna learn how to manage your nerves right so there's gonna

1:08:28

this is a process and

1:08:29

it's a journey and so along the way you're gonna have some moments where a deer

1:08:33

comes in or an elk

1:08:34

comes in where you're you see your body shaking freaking out but then in the

1:08:39

future you're gonna know

1:08:41

okay i know when this is coming now i know how to stay calm and now i see us

1:08:46

coming like nah

1:08:47

bitch we ain't we ain't getting there we're not going there we're staying right

1:08:51

here i call it going

1:08:53

dead like you go dead like all this anticipation and what if i miss and what if

1:08:59

i do this and what

1:09:00

if he runs what if he turns nothing i don't let nothing in you don't let

1:09:04

nothing in and you just like

1:09:06

exist like a cat like you're like a cat like staring at the thing you're about

1:09:10

to kill just locked

1:09:13

in there's no negative at all you don't ever let those emotions creep in you

1:09:18

know i asked cam i'm

1:09:20

like do you ever check your heart rate when you shoot and he's like yeah it

1:09:22

doesn't even move

1:09:23

like yeah because he knows how to stay in that moment yeah he knows how to stay

1:09:29

calm afterwards

1:09:30

it's like yay everybody's great and everybody's happy and oh my god look at

1:09:33

this is incredible

1:09:34

it worked out what a perfect shot i can't wait to feel that hugs yeah can't

1:09:38

think about that though

1:09:39

can't think about the result never think about the result always think about

1:09:42

the process i'm

1:09:43

always thinking about the process i'm having fun with the process here process

1:09:46

is amazing cam was

1:09:47

saying that i felt so badly to cam and i said camera you're not mad that we sat

1:09:50

four times and i

1:09:51

haven't got one yet especially since i've fucked it up once and twice had to

1:09:54

pee today but um but

1:09:56

we've been in there four hours i mean i was like cam that buck's not coming

1:09:59

back

1:09:59

especially if you're staying hydrated yeah i'm staying hydrated like cam i got

1:10:02

it yeah but

1:10:03

that guy has amazing patience no he said he smiled he was like this is what i'm

1:10:07

here for above

1:10:07

he said i'm glad you're getting the journey and i was like i think if i came

1:10:11

here and just shot one

1:10:12

it wouldn't have been i've sat forward to i've really i'm working for this deer

1:10:15

oh yeah yeah i

1:10:16

pulled on him three times this morning joe and just could not and cam was proud

1:10:20

of me though

1:10:20

because i was like i just don't have the shot cam because he a whispers in my

1:10:23

ear he goes you got

1:10:24

a shot and i've been um i forgot who wrote it but it's a little book called

1:10:28

lying have you ever

1:10:28

seen this book no it's like a jamie it's like a little bitty book it's just

1:10:32

called lying

1:10:32

but it's like some off you got to check it it's a really cool book and it just

1:10:35

talks about us lying

1:10:36

and it was the book that talked about me lying to myself and right then i had

1:10:40

to fight that urge

1:10:41

to lie because it wouldn't have been a lie if i'd have said yes i got a shot

1:10:44

but i didn't i didn't

1:10:45

have a good shot right so instead i go i don't get one i like cam cam goes and

1:10:50

he just put his hand

1:10:52

on my sword he said i'm proud of you for that and i just let it down you know

1:10:54

what i mean like

1:10:55

yeah i was at least even in the moment of like i want to kill this deer so i

1:10:58

would be so cool

1:10:59

imagine if i went on joe rogan's after killing my first buck this morning and i

1:11:02

was like but i was

1:11:03

like this ain't the shot you know what i mean like i want the first one to be

1:11:07

the shot i want to be

1:11:07

proud of it you know i don't want to harm an animal yeah you know what i mean i

1:11:10

don't want

1:11:10

an animal to suffer i want to double lung it i want to drop it like a movie you

1:11:13

know what i'm saying

1:11:14

yeah and if i have to sit here eight more times to get that shot yeah it'll

1:11:18

just make it this

1:11:19

i'm just getting better i'm learning more i'm learning how to listen for stuff

1:11:23

i'm seeing things now i

1:11:24

know when they're looking what the wind means i learned what barometric

1:11:27

pressure is what it does to

1:11:29

it's all kind of cool stuff dude i'm like a little nerd there i'm like the

1:11:31

little kid walking around

1:11:32

asking questions all day well there's a really big learning curve to hunting

1:11:35

particularly bow hunting

1:11:37

and it's really interesting look you just keep learning stuff like i've been

1:11:41

doing it now for

1:11:42

i guess i've been bow hunting for 12 years or 13 years i guess 12 years and i'm

1:11:49

still learning i learn

1:11:50

all the time i mean i'm you know i it's one of the most rewarding things that i've

1:11:57

ever done you know

1:11:58

and and especially in terms of like getting pretty decent at it getting proficient

1:12:03

at it and having a

1:12:04

bunch of success and success begets more success i love it and then when you

1:12:09

eat it it's different than

1:12:11

any other meal you're you'll ever eat when i when i pull an elk steak out of my

1:12:15

freezer and i thaw it

1:12:16

out and then i throw it on the traeger and i throw some olive oil on it and i

1:12:20

like this saskatchewan

1:12:22

blackened saskatchewan rub that they have it's my favorite for elk and i get

1:12:26

that sucker up to 120

1:12:28

degrees and then i bring it inside and i sear it on a cast iron frying pan then

1:12:32

i eat it oh man it's

1:12:35

magical i remember i remember the whack when that elbow hit him in the lungs

1:12:41

that whack that sounds whack how crazy is it hunting elk oh they're crazy they're

1:12:48

crazy they

1:12:48

fucking scream oh that would scare the shit out of it it's magical i hunted uh

1:12:55

with cam this september

1:12:56

and uh i got this elk that was uh he had he was coming over the mountains with

1:13:03

his cows

1:13:03

and uh we saw him we're like whoa that's a good one and like we got to try to

1:13:07

get to him so we had

1:13:08

to go over the top of this ridge and go down into this valley and go through

1:13:11

the woods and as we got to

1:13:13

where he was another elk stole his fucking cows and so by the time we got to

1:13:19

the woods we were trying

1:13:20

to like we're following the screams because he was still screaming they were

1:13:24

screaming the cows

1:13:26

so we we get through the woods and then we realized oh shit he got his cow

1:13:31

stolen so his cows we saw the

1:13:33

last of his cows run up this hill run up the side of this mountain and uh he

1:13:39

was going after them he

1:13:40

was like slowly and then my my guy colton that i was with he called he went you

1:13:45

know he busted this

1:13:46

little elk the cow elk call and you see the elk go like this it's like a record

1:13:52

skips you know like

1:13:55

and then he turns and he's like slowly starts walking i was at full draw for

1:13:59

like a minute and a half

1:14:01

behind this tree just holding for a minute and a half while this dude was he

1:14:06

was about 25 yards but he did

1:14:08

not like it he's like something's going on here i don't see the cow what the

1:14:14

fuck is happening here

1:14:15

so he went around sideways to try to get our wind and as soon as he went around

1:14:20

sideways as soon as

1:14:22

he got clear i saw him put that pin on him saw swack he hit him he was dead in

1:14:27

15 seconds oh 15 seconds

1:14:29

he he he he he got hit he's like what the fuck he rolled he he turned started

1:14:35

going downhill and then

1:14:37

fell and rolled and it was over like that and then i think at that moment every

1:14:42

time i eat it every

1:14:43

time i'm cutting into that steak i think of that crazy moment you know god that

1:14:47

is a wild moment dude

1:14:49

and it's also after miles and miles of trekking up these mountains you're at

1:14:54

seven thousand seven

1:14:55

hundred feet above sea level if i can and you have to hunt hunt elk you don't

1:15:00

sit for them right you

1:15:01

got to kind of go out and find them there's no sitting yeah you go find them

1:15:05

you're

1:15:05

fucking exhausted every day let's go baby yeah it's crazy that's what i'm

1:15:08

training for joe rogan

1:15:10

oh 100 that's what i'm getting in shape when when june starts rolling around

1:15:14

that's when i start

1:15:15

really ramping up the cardio that's when i start ramping up the airdyne bike

1:15:19

and ramping up the steps

1:15:20

when i start doing step ups on boxes and i start doing like body weights september

1:15:26

wow okay

1:15:27

so right around june is when i really just kick into

1:15:31

leg strengthening leg conditioning and cardio time right because you know you're

1:15:36

going to have to go

1:15:36

they live in the mountains man which is interesting because they didn't used to

1:15:39

be like they were more

1:15:40

like living in the plains until people start fucking with them and then they

1:15:44

like realize like the best

1:15:45

way to get away from people is to get way up where it's difficult to get to so

1:15:50

if you want to get them

1:15:51

you got to go where it's difficult to get to so you got to get in shape yeah

1:15:55

that and that's the stuff

1:15:56

like i hope somebody's listening to this right now going man i'll never be able

1:15:59

to elk hunt yeah

1:16:00

you can yeah you can i promise you can you walk then you can do it you can do

1:16:03

it just start walking

1:16:04

tomorrow and start going forward and yeah even then don't you know it's your

1:16:08

big goal put little goals

1:16:09

in between there that was another big one for me was like i had these big goals

1:16:13

but i didn't get

1:16:14

they were so far i realized i'd lose sight of them sometimes so you got to set

1:16:17

them little

1:16:18

little baby goals in the middle you know what i mean those little like you know

1:16:21

what i'm going to walk

1:16:22

a mile five days this week no matter what the weather is i'm going to walk a

1:16:26

whole mile you

1:16:27

know i'm going to walk to my mailbox and back whatever your starting point is

1:16:30

and then i encourage

1:16:32

you to start making the decision that's hard because me and cam talked about

1:16:36

this when we ran our 5k

1:16:37

there's a hill my driveway comes down a driveway comes down a hill and you bust

1:16:42

a right joe

1:16:43

and then you can go left into a neighborhood the same run i run every day or

1:16:48

you can go right up a

1:16:49

hill and it is a hill hill you know and the first day i came out and i looked

1:16:57

up that hill and i looked

1:16:58

to the left and i took two steps to the left and i stopped and i told myself i

1:17:02

was like i'm learning

1:17:03

about stories we tell ourselves the story i've been telling myself my whole

1:17:07

life was take the easy way

1:17:08

out my entire life joe i have always looked for the path of the easiest like a

1:17:15

to b straight line you

1:17:17

know what i mean and i was like i break that today i turn right fuck you you

1:17:25

feel it don't you it's big

1:17:27

right then big it's a big move big moment when you're like no i'm hitting that

1:17:30

fucking hill yeah

1:17:31

you know because i'm big fat people hate hills stairs we hate all that shit so

1:17:35

i'm like i'm like

1:17:37

hit the hill you know and i'm walking and i'm stopping and i'm walking and i'm

1:17:41

stopping and i'm

1:17:42

walking and i stop i just kept going when i got to the top of it there was a

1:17:45

telephone pole up

1:17:45

there and i went and slapped it i just slapped the shit out of it oh and i was

1:17:50

just i felt so

1:17:51

achieved and i came down the hill and then i took a left and i was going to go

1:17:54

straight down to the

1:17:55

stop sign and back but if you take a left you can go up another hill so i was

1:17:58

in my mind i was like

1:17:59

i'm going to stop sign i hit the hill but as i was walking by that other hill i

1:18:02

was like

1:18:02

this is the new you you hit the hill dog this is the new you today is the new

1:18:07

you you hit the hill

1:18:09

left hit the fucking hill come back down on my way home that day look up see

1:18:13

that hill it's right

1:18:14

by my house i go fuck i made it one more time you know what i mean and then it

1:18:17

started becoming a

1:18:18

thing where it's like i started adopting that philosophy in life now joe i hit

1:18:22

the hill first

1:18:23

whatever the hardest thing is whatever scares me the most whatever i think is

1:18:26

going to be the most

1:18:26

daunting of the day it's like put that motherfucker on the table right now let

1:18:30

me see that

1:18:31

bitch first and it makes the rest of your life easier too that's what's really

1:18:34

important when you

1:18:35

elect to make these decisions conscious decisions to do a difficult thing

1:18:40

voluntarily you elect to do

1:18:42

that then the rest of your life becomes way easier because the most difficult

1:18:47

thing of your day is

1:18:48

always the most difficult thing of your day whether you decide to do it or

1:18:51

whether life throws it at

1:18:53

you and you can decide to give yourself some shit that's way harder than

1:18:57

anything life's going to

1:18:58

throw at you and then the rest of life becomes easy it makes you ready to deal

1:19:02

with life it's also very

1:19:03

important for famous people yes it's very important for famous people because

1:19:06

for famous the the

1:19:09

pressures and the weirdness of fame most people don't understand the

1:19:15

psychological burden that they

1:19:18

that that carries that that how that hits you and it can really fuck with you

1:19:25

and one of the

1:19:27

best ways that i've found to keep it from fucking with me is to make the

1:19:31

hardest part of my day my

1:19:34

choice i do it yes i put myself through so other stuff that seems difficult for

1:19:40

other people that

1:19:41

don't work out or don't take on challenging tasks yeah it's not that difficult

1:19:47

for me it's easy i'm already

1:19:49

torturing myself every fucking day and i feel weirdly more qualified to deal

1:19:53

with shit when i do though yeah like

1:19:55

when i have a really hard run i walk into the house that day like i don't care

1:19:59

what comes at me today

1:20:01

exactly i am on fire i'll give you another quick there's nothing harder than

1:20:04

what you're doing you're

1:20:05

barely alive right you're breathing so hard your your heart is pounding nothing

1:20:11

in life is giving you

1:20:13

that nothing in life is giving you that kind of burden no so if you can do that

1:20:17

to yourself it'll make the

1:20:18

rest of your life way easier and then it it believe it or not it gets funner

1:20:23

like it goes back to my

1:20:24

first uh year walking was miserable i won't lie to people that are listening to

1:20:28

this i didn't enjoy

1:20:29

one of those walks you know what i mean not one i didn't have one time but when

1:20:34

the weight started

1:20:35

coming off and i started being able to breathe a little better like i wasn't

1:20:38

just fighting for

1:20:39

oxygen every single step and that moment happens though if you're patient the

1:20:44

next thing you know

1:20:45

you're running with your friends and y'all are talking about the football game

1:20:47

and you're firing on

1:20:48

all cylinders today when you were on that treadmill you were talking we were

1:20:51

watching the volkanov

1:20:52

excuse me the pyotr jan yeah marab dwavish willie fight we were giving

1:20:57

commentary yeah it's like

1:20:58

you do it and it makes as you were running like oh i remember when that kick

1:21:01

landed yeah i was like

1:21:02

that was loud i'm telling you dude as you're running just running and yeah and

1:21:06

it makes me mentally ready

1:21:07

now because i go out and i know david talked about this a lot goggins but i go

1:21:10

out there and beat

1:21:11

that bitch every day yeah all them negative thoughts that deal with them on my

1:21:15

run and my workout every

1:21:16

one of those you can't do it and you know what else i've learned if i have a

1:21:19

chance to eat bad today

1:21:21

it's going to happen on a day i didn't wake up and run right if i'm going to go

1:21:24

off off my program

1:21:26

because the days i run i don't want that right i know i earned it right and

1:21:30

mentally it makes me

1:21:31

better i woke up the other day and ran my farm and i come back and my son i'm

1:21:35

all excited we're going

1:21:36

to the titan game and i'm getting to connect with my son and i go um hop on a

1:21:39

four-wheeler right up to

1:21:41

the top of the hill i'll run up there and meet you i'm getting a little more

1:21:44

exercise in and when i'm

1:21:45

running up to the top of the hill i look up and he stuck he stopped somewhere

1:21:48

going down another hill

1:21:49

that i thought he was going to go down and right then i realized it's the hill

1:21:52

that he fell and broke

1:21:53

his wrist on riding a four-wheeler last year and he stopped up there because he's

1:21:57

scared and his friend

1:21:58

already went down joe i thank god in that moment i said jesus thank you i'm

1:22:02

ready for this i've ran i'm not i'm i

1:22:05

feel the endorphins like i am ready to parent this moment most of the time you

1:22:09

know as a parent you

1:22:10

walk into these crazy moments and you're like oh not fully ready for this

1:22:13

moment you know what i mean

1:22:14

like we blow them and you look back and go i wasn't ready for that one

1:22:17

necessarily yeah and i walk up

1:22:19

to him and i credit this to running i walk up and i go what's up buddy and he

1:22:23

goes i think this is the

1:22:24

hill dad i go it is buddy he goes i'm scared and i go dude i've been scared for

1:22:30

35 years and i never

1:22:32

admitted it so you're already way better than me like you're already twice the

1:22:36

man i am i said now

1:22:37

what we got to do is know we know what we're feeling what are we going to do it's

1:22:41

me and you

1:22:42

buddy what are we going to do he goes well i don't want to drive it i go what

1:22:45

if i ride with you he goes

1:22:47

will you sit on the back of this now he's on a 90. you know what i'm talking

1:22:50

about you know for

1:22:51

people at home this is a nine-year-old four-wheeler and even then i start just

1:22:55

thanking god in my head

1:22:56

where i was like i'm ready for this for the first time ever i'm not too fat to

1:22:59

get on this thing with

1:23:00

him probably gonna rub a little bit you know what i'm saying but i can get on

1:23:03

the back of it and i

1:23:05

sit down on the back of it and he says we grabbed a steering wheel i go no

1:23:08

buddy but i'll grab your

1:23:09

waist i said you don't need me to touch that steering wheel you just need me

1:23:12

with you

1:23:12

crushes it down the hill nice you know what i mean that's awesome you get to

1:23:18

have the moment where

1:23:19

you get to go now what we learned there buddy he goes i learned that i can do

1:23:21

it as long as you're with

1:23:22

me i said no buddy you learned that you can do it you just need you just

1:23:25

thought you needed me with

1:23:26

you right i said but here's the good news jesus is always with you bubba you

1:23:30

got this like just go

1:23:32

like don't be afraid of this man he drove it back up the hill so then i said do

1:23:34

me a favor

1:23:35

just ride up top of the hill and ride back down i'll be sitting here waiting

1:23:38

for you

1:23:38

if you start to go south i'll run and jump on you i'll do whatever i'll save

1:23:42

you i'll go

1:23:43

i'll i'll die for you boy just come down that hill he drove right up the top of

1:23:46

that hill turned

1:23:46

around came right down to jail and it's like i was ready for it though i'd

1:23:50

already did the hard

1:23:50

stuff that day you know what i mean having an emotional moment with my son was

1:23:53

the easiest

1:23:53

part of my day after that i'd already ran three four miles you know what i mean

1:23:56

i'd already woke up and

1:23:57

gap myself in a headspace of like i'm gonna pour into my son today i'm gonna i'm

1:24:01

gonna take him to get

1:24:02

his favorite suite from the titan game i'm gonna get him a cam war jersey i'd

1:24:05

already had a thing of

1:24:06

ways i was going to connect with him and then god gave me a whole new

1:24:09

opportunity yeah you know what

1:24:10

i mean like god gave me a real opportunity i was making ways to connect like

1:24:13

how we could probably do

1:24:14

this and this will be fun but like it just naturally came yeah i wasn't ready

1:24:18

for that at 500 pounds one

1:24:19

i would have never been like go up there hill you have 500 pounds i'm like you

1:24:22

want to sit here and

1:24:23

watch a movie right no kid wants to sit and watch a movie at nine years old for

1:24:26

all parents out there

1:24:27

that are 500 pounds you know what i mean i'll answer for them um but to be in

1:24:31

that kind of place with

1:24:32

them is like the joy of life like i i want somebody to hear this podcast i keep

1:24:36

saying it this way

1:24:38

and understand that you're not living the life you can right and it's so so

1:24:42

possible it's not easy but

1:24:45

it's possible and it's worth it it's so worth it joe you know the things that

1:24:50

are not easier are worth

1:24:51

it it's it's important to do things that are not easy it's really important it's

1:24:57

like if you you want

1:24:58

real peace peace doesn't come from rest peace comes from struggle peace comes

1:25:03

from struggle it really

1:25:04

does you have to you have to peace comes from challenge it comes from being

1:25:08

excited about

1:25:09

something doing something difficult figuring out you could do it building

1:25:13

resilience you know building

1:25:15

resilience is so important it's so important because there's just too many

1:25:18

people that are afraid of

1:25:19

resilience they're afraid of confrontation they're afraid of anything that's

1:25:24

difficult anything that's

1:25:25

struggle anything that's going to test them they're scared of it they don't

1:25:29

want that discomfort

1:25:30

but that discomfort is when you find true peace there was a guy that there's a

1:25:34

there's a famous

1:25:34

old tale that remind me of that but the guy goes um a young man looks at a rich

1:25:39

man one day and which

1:25:40

health happy man he goes uh how did you get where you are and the rich happy

1:25:44

man looks at him and goes

1:25:45

good decisions two words good decisions you ever heard this story no he goes

1:25:49

good decisions and the kid

1:25:50

goes well how did you make good decisions he goes one word experience and the

1:25:55

kid goes well how did you get

1:25:57

experience and the guy goes two words bad decisions

1:26:01

yeah you just gotta go do it dude yeah failure failure is critical failure and

1:26:11

the pain of failure is

1:26:13

also very important it sucks and it's hard in the moment you don't think you're

1:26:17

ever going to live

1:26:17

past this you're going to live in this moment forever and i can't do this i'm

1:26:20

gonna i can't live like

1:26:22

this i can't do this but get through it get through it get through it and now

1:26:26

you have resilience and

1:26:28

you'll become a whole you'll become a better person because of it like just

1:26:32

just taking and um i i used

1:26:34

to be that way and i'd get in shame about stuff like shame was a big thing for

1:26:38

me i'd be embarrassed

1:26:39

and i'd get into a spiral where i just wouldn't deal with things i'd be like i'm

1:26:43

just ashamed of that i

1:26:43

didn't do it right or i'm gonna fuck up or i'll never do it right or i'll never

1:26:47

be able to do

1:26:48

that i use this kind of language it goes back to how we talk to ourselves right

1:26:51

you know it's like

1:26:52

this is and your body believes it you tell your body enough you're never going

1:26:54

to do nothing your

1:26:55

body will start to be like all right we're never going to do that you know but

1:26:57

it's like i realized

1:26:58

that it was more about actually just starting to go no man i can do that you

1:27:05

know what i mean like

1:27:05

i can figure that out and now i get motivated every time i've left that deer

1:27:10

blind without one

1:27:11

of them bucks every time we get in the truck i'm all i'm smiles cam goes how

1:27:15

you feeling i was like

1:27:16

dog i am going to get good at this you know what i mean like i look at it

1:27:19

different i don't look at

1:27:21

it like oh i suck i look at it like dog yeah i am eight hours into ten thousand

1:27:26

of these hours you

1:27:27

know what i'm saying like y'all be patient with me i'm only on hour eight you

1:27:29

know what i'm saying

1:27:30

like but i promise y'all i'll be a whole different dude but god eight hours

1:27:33

into something like

1:27:34

that is so nice because you know you have so much to learn and if you just look

1:27:40

at it that way like

1:27:41

what a beautiful blessing it is to have so many opportunities to do things so

1:27:46

many times that

1:27:47

you're going to be able to learn so much time to grow so much time to get

1:27:51

better you have so much

1:27:53

room i mean if you're already cam heinz boy it's so difficult to get better

1:27:56

when you're the best yeah

1:27:58

for sure so hard yes 100 all you can do is help me and you know he's just

1:28:02

challenged by moments

1:28:04

so he just experiences a lot of challenging moments and he rises to the

1:28:08

occasion because he knows

1:28:09

because he's got 30 plus years of experience doing it and he knows how to do it

1:28:14

but for you it's like

1:28:15

you're in this beautiful place where it's all learning every day is a new

1:28:19

lesson even mistakes like

1:28:21

putting your hoodie on okay yeah now we know now i know i'm gonna wear the

1:28:25

hoodie i tell you what

1:28:25

tomorrow night i'm gonna wear the hoodie if it's 80 because i don't care i'd

1:28:28

rather sweat in it and

1:28:29

then when it gets cold i'm ready then be not ready and you're gonna have a

1:28:32

bunch of those i i had one

1:28:35

elk hunting this september that we we were going after these elk that were in

1:28:39

this thickly wooded

1:28:41

uh section and we were in this open area and uh we were we were trying to

1:28:46

figure out where this bull is

1:28:48

because he was running cows through there and you would catch glimpses of them

1:28:53

and so we decided to move

1:28:55

around to this new spot and as we decided to move around to this new spot we

1:28:59

were like you know what

1:29:01

we're gonna have to go up this ridge and go around this way and come at him

1:29:05

from another direction

1:29:07

so as we started to do that he changed and he he ran out through the woods into

1:29:13

the clearing and i was

1:29:15

stuck out in the open just standing there like staring i'm like fuck if i just

1:29:19

stayed in cover i would

1:29:21

have got this motherfucker but i got impatient and i tried to like run out and

1:29:25

meet and you know it's

1:29:27

one of those lessons like okay now next time better 12 years in that makes me

1:29:31

feel good oh god i'm not

1:29:33

even close to knowing what the fuck i'm doing you know i i need a lot of

1:29:37

lessons i'm green as a pool

1:29:38

table twice the square it's bad i'm out there so lost joe it's got to be at

1:29:42

least entertaining for

1:29:43

everybody it's so exciting though and you'll get that success it'll it'll come

1:29:48

i'm having so much

1:29:49

fun you know i was like i i think i'm gonna get a buck this week i believe it

1:29:53

but if i don't i got so

1:29:54

many lessons and i'll be back the next week they'll let me back to try yeah you

1:29:58

know you'll find the

1:29:58

moment you'll find the moment it's gonna come it's gonna come with persistence

1:30:02

and just putting in the

1:30:03

time and i feel like the universe just gives you these opportunities and let

1:30:08

and when when it's

1:30:09

there you'll have this big burst like this breakthrough moment like okay i did

1:30:15

it yeah i

1:30:15

fucking did it i did it okay i'm gonna cook this year this deer is good you'll

1:30:20

be salting that thing

1:30:22

and slapping on the grill watching it sizzle smelling it oh the smell oh oh and

1:30:30

then when you go to cook

1:30:31

it you're like oh my god this is the best food i've ever eaten in my life is

1:30:34

the best bite of food

1:30:35

because it's a bite of food with an experience attached to it it's not just a

1:30:39

bite of and it's

1:30:40

the best meat on planet earth the healthiest food you can get you want to talk

1:30:44

about like density you

1:30:45

were talking about like density of nutrition there's nothing more dense than

1:30:49

wild game it's like twice as

1:30:51

much protein as a piece of beef yeah twice as much for the same amount of

1:30:54

ounces yeah it's wow it's so

1:30:56

good for you same calories no like probably less wow you're eating an athlete

1:31:01

oh yeah for sure you're

1:31:03

eating like an athlete you know that's correct i never thought of it that way

1:31:06

yeah man i've never

1:31:06

ate a bunch of game though obviously this is also new game is the best thing

1:31:10

for you by far there's

1:31:11

not no better food than wild game i've never had an elk steak i want one oh my

1:31:14

goodness you gotta try

1:31:15

one oh i wish i had one right here to cook for you i wish i had a grill we'll

1:31:19

do one the good

1:31:19

news is we'll do it the right way we'll cook when i kill yes that'll be the big

1:31:23

moment yes if i waited

1:31:24

this long i might as well go smack it'll be so exciting it's and then you're

1:31:28

then you're going

1:31:28

to be fully fully fully fully hooked yeah yeah once you actually do it like

1:31:34

when i shot that that um

1:31:36

mule deer that's on that table and you know ranella did the same thing that cam

1:31:40

did for you

1:31:41

you know he took me he showed me what to do he took me out there and completely

1:31:45

green i never even shot a

1:31:47

rifle before i only shot a rifle like three luckily and i'm not saying rifle

1:31:51

hunting is easy for people

1:31:52

that rifle hunt and think it's really very difficult it's very difficult but it's

1:31:56

not as difficult as

1:31:57

bow hunting and which is why i was able to be successful on my first ever rifle

1:32:01

hunt you know

1:32:02

being successful on a bow hunt for mule deer good luck a bow hunting for mule

1:32:07

deer has a very low

1:32:09

success rate like even with elite hunters it's a because it's a very cagey

1:32:13

animal they're very

1:32:15

intelligent but super fast too right we were eating this animal we we shot it

1:32:21

we we packed it out we

1:32:23

started a campfire we're cooking it and i remember steve said to me what do you

1:32:27

think i said i'm doing

1:32:28

this forever yeah forever yeah i knew at that moment i was like well i'm gonna

1:32:33

be a hunter now

1:32:35

like that's what i'm doing forever because i was on my way to being a

1:32:38

vegetarian i was like i don't i

1:32:39

watch too many pita videos and i'm like oh my god factory farming is so awful

1:32:44

it's so terrible you

1:32:45

know i didn't understand like regenerative farming and ranching and i i eat

1:32:49

beef now i i mean i i never

1:32:52

stopped eating beef but eating wild game is a different thing it's it's a

1:32:57

different like i said

1:32:59

it's food with experience attached to it there's something very spiritual about

1:33:03

it and it's also it

1:33:04

connects you to a part of mankind's history that is is it's intertwined in your

1:33:13

dna like there's something

1:33:15

about it you know like for people that have never experienced before you know

1:33:18

the feeling that you get

1:33:19

when you catch a fish even little kids man i remember my daughter caught her

1:33:23

first fish when

1:33:24

she was like six she caught a bass and she was so excited oh you get it that is

1:33:29

in our dna because

1:33:32

that means that you're going to live you're going to eat you're going to feed

1:33:36

your family that's why

1:33:37

that is so exciting to catch a fish shooting an animal and killing it and

1:33:43

eating it knowing that

1:33:44

you can eat it for months is that times like a hundred shooting an animal with

1:33:48

a bow is that

1:33:49

times a thousand oh it made me think about when i was thinking about animal

1:33:52

killing and bows especially

1:33:54

now because i'm thinking about this a lot obviously i'm in the middle of it but

1:33:56

there's this thing

1:33:58

that's happening there where it's like the concept that back in the day a man

1:34:02

left with this stick and

1:34:05

piece of metal or just a stick back then a shaved stick and a string it was

1:34:09

like if this goes good i

1:34:11

will come back with enough to feed our tribe yeah this entire village of people

1:34:15

i will bring a deer

1:34:16

and we will all eat together that's crazy it is crazy that that was once the

1:34:21

way it actually went

1:34:22

and it was the only way this is uh from here this who knows how old that is wow

1:34:31

yeah a friend of mine

1:34:32

got that on his ranch and gave it to me oh yeah this is crazy yeah so some

1:34:37

native american probably comanche

1:34:41

because it's here in in austin and that guy who made that made it himself

1:34:48

attached it with sinew and

1:34:51

and and and and twine and put it on a stick that he had shaved down and put

1:34:57

feathers on it that he had

1:34:59

got from a bird and and you know glue that they had made from they made glue

1:35:03

from all kinds of different

1:35:05

things and and he he shot that probably into an animal and it fed his family

1:35:11

yeah and then that was

1:35:13

lost in the dirt and then a thousand years later somebody found it it still

1:35:17

stands yeah and it's

1:35:19

here yeah it's crazy and that he came home like a hero yeah you know what i'm

1:35:23

saying like man you're

1:35:25

right that feeling of catching that fish my daughter felt it too when she was

1:35:27

six i took her bluegill

1:35:28

fishing yeah a little i had a little spot in the lake where you could just

1:35:31

drive and catch a bluegill

1:35:32

almost every time you know they're pretty little fishes it's so exciting she

1:35:35

would have a ball

1:35:36

yeah it's so exciting she would have i took my wife to uh fish for the first

1:35:40

time when she came moved

1:35:41

down from vegas and i thought i wasn't thinking joe this was a user error but i

1:35:46

was like oh my

1:35:47

friend's got a spot catfish pond i was like this is great do you just throw it

1:35:49

out there she'll get

1:35:50

her a big old hog of a catfish i wasn't thinking about how brutally hard it is

1:35:55

to unhook catfish like

1:35:57

compared to a bass or a bluegill you know what i mean and of course i get a

1:36:01

bass that swallows

1:36:03

the fucking oh no so here we fight this bass i mean there's a catfish in and

1:36:07

she's all excited

1:36:08

until it gets there and it to this day was the most brutal ripping out of joe

1:36:15

she's never went back

1:36:17

she was disgusted she was all in until after like once we got should have just

1:36:21

clipped it threw it

1:36:22

back in but i was just determined to get you know how you are when you're stuck

1:36:26

coming out and it was

1:36:27

just horrible yeah i'd look like uh yeah but the good news is i think i've got

1:36:33

her talking to want

1:36:34

a deer hunt after i do because um uh rihanna goes uh cam's assistant she loves

1:36:39

bunny and uh and i

1:36:41

think that'd be digestible for bunny like if she went with another chick that

1:36:44

was cool you know what

1:36:45

i mean it's a big time bow hunter she'll show her how to do it maybe she'll get

1:36:49

hooked too i know she

1:36:50

was good because she was talking about hitting one yesterday she was like i had

1:36:53

a shot on one at like

1:36:54

40 almost i had one at 40 yards out but i didn't have a shot right then i was

1:36:57

like you were going to

1:36:57

take a shot at 40 yards if you had one that's crazy bow hunting skill i was

1:37:02

like yeah uh this uh

1:37:05

the ability to shoot at distance is really tricky because you got to take into

1:37:11

account wind you got

1:37:13

to take into account the movement of the animal you got to be assured that that

1:37:16

because like like um

1:37:18

there's a do you see that elk that's on the wall out front with a photo of cam

1:37:22

and and i actually that

1:37:23

was 67 yards whoa yeah we got a video of that so this elk was standing at 67

1:37:29

yards and he's just

1:37:31

stopped he had fought off these other elk and he was tired and he just stopped

1:37:35

and that arrow i'll

1:37:36

never forget that arrow that i was like right in the 10 ring it was a perfect

1:37:43

shot and for almost 70 out

1:37:46

yeah and he ran and he just piled up he just ran right over the top of this

1:37:51

hill and boom

1:37:52

and he was done but it was that was years and years and years of every day

1:37:58

in the backyard all day long i mean i i shot so many hours i fucked my shoulder

1:38:06

up i

1:38:06

fucked my lower back i was because i'm obsessive yeah i will shoot for four or

1:38:11

five hours a day

1:38:12

and i'm pulling an 85 pound bow like 150 times a day it's ridiculous yeah it's

1:38:18

great it's like on your

1:38:19

body it's your body's like what the fuck are you doing for sure but i'm only

1:38:23

pulling 45 pounds but

1:38:24

when you do that over and over and over and over and over and over and over and

1:38:29

over and over and over

1:38:30

it becomes a part of your central nervous system it's like your brain just gets

1:38:34

locked in your your eye

1:38:37

immediately goes to that peep site it lines it up immediately with the site

1:38:41

housing you balance it all

1:38:43

out you put in the same place every time too always yeah you have to yeah you

1:38:47

have to have anchor points

1:38:48

i've got a little i got a bomar nose button that touches my nose i feel that on

1:38:53

my nose every time

1:38:54

where the string touches my nose this little thing just kind of pinches at your

1:38:58

nose yeah let you know

1:38:59

you're in the right spot yeah i'm gonna go get wayne to redo mine he did it but

1:39:03

we had it where it just

1:39:03

sat on my nose perfect and then i lost that weight so i mean more weight i lost

1:39:08

like 80 pounds since i got set

1:39:09

since i got set for the bow oh wow yeah this is like the never-ending problem

1:39:12

in my life right now

1:39:13

clothes are either super baggier i got one size too early so it's tight you

1:39:16

know because i'm just

1:39:17

having to constantly chase whatever's next right i can't wait until i'm just a

1:39:21

normal person i get

1:39:21

down a normal weight and you know put on a holiday weight like everybody else

1:39:25

and that's the fluctuation

1:39:26

that's wild i'm close though you're so close i got down i'm in like the 260s

1:39:31

right now 30-something

1:39:32

pounds of skin on me i'd like to lose another probably 40 is probably my goal

1:39:36

you're gonna be under 200

1:39:38

pounds that is that's the goal that's the goal i just want to see it once on a

1:39:41

scale just like as

1:39:42

an adult male see 190 just see like 199 just like wow that's crazy it still

1:39:48

feels weird telling people

1:39:49

i weigh something that starts with 200 i haven't weighed in the 200 since i was

1:39:53

like 12 well you know

1:39:54

what as you put on muscle you might stay in the 200s but it'll be a different

1:39:58

200 dude i'm i am i'm

1:40:00

packing man my i didn't my shoulders are like i'm proud of them i um yeah you

1:40:04

look different man like in in

1:40:06

every way in every way no it's like my posture is better like i sit better you're

1:40:12

not burdened by a

1:40:13

you're you're rucksacking 300 pounds everywhere you went all the time that's

1:40:18

crazy and your legs must be

1:40:19

so powerful i say that to ralphie may ralphie may unfortunately never lost the

1:40:24

weight and did wind up

1:40:26

dying young but i used to say to ralphie i'm like ralphie if you ever lost

1:40:29

weight you get kicked

1:40:30

through a fucking building with those legs yeah like his legs were carrying

1:40:34

around 500 pounds

1:40:35

everywhere he went oh yeah and everywhere he'd stand straight up and do a whole

1:40:39

hour yeah pacing the

1:40:41

stage and killing it yeah you know what i mean it's crazy yeah it's like one of

1:40:45

the best dude he was a

1:40:46

fun dude too was he fun outside oh yeah he's a sweetheart of a guy he was a

1:40:50

great cook too

1:40:51

and unfortunately after a while um you know he had a he had done it with

1:40:56

surgery and it didn't work he

1:40:58

you know like a lot of people that have that addiction he couldn't stop and he

1:41:03

thought like

1:41:04

surgery was the answer so he got his stomach done and then he ate through it

1:41:08

and then he had to get it

1:41:09

redone like he blew it out and so it got to a point where you know when they

1:41:14

then they cut your stomach

1:41:15

down they shrink your stomach the gastrointestinal bypass he got to a point

1:41:20

where he couldn't digest

1:41:22

meat so he would uh barbecue for us ralphie was a really good cook so he'd make

1:41:28

ribs they were

1:41:28

sensational but he couldn't eat them he had to be eating vegetables wow yeah

1:41:32

because his body wasn't

1:41:34

it wouldn't process the meat right yeah that's great that was after the bypass

1:41:38

right i think after the second bypass see that's um and once again it's like my

1:41:44

heart hurts you know

1:41:45

not that not that anybody could have made a difference maybe but man i just

1:41:48

wish yeah i mean

1:41:50

maybe maybe if he knew you and you guys did it together i could have just sat

1:41:53

down and be like bro

1:41:54

i know like i think that's why me and you doing this pod so important to me was

1:41:58

like i know there's

1:41:59

going to be people that are going to see clips of this that are 300 400 500

1:42:04

pounds and i want them to

1:42:05

like you can do it without a doubt like you really can't it like it's it's

1:42:09

actually worth it

1:42:10

it's small steps it's telling yourself the truth doing what you say you're

1:42:14

going to do meaning it

1:42:15

keeping your word but most importantly food food food food food dude yeah like

1:42:20

i just now started

1:42:21

showing the runs and stuff like because i think people appreciate seeing the

1:42:24

work but it's like what

1:42:25

was important really the weight's not lost in that that running the running is

1:42:29

what makes me feel good

1:42:30

it's fighting the demon right the weight's lost whenever i sit down at the

1:42:33

dinner table right and

1:42:34

i eat like a normal human i don't eat seven plates and six desserts you know

1:42:38

what i mean like that's

1:42:40

where it's at and that's that it's anytime i used to see guys like ralphie and

1:42:44

i would think at watching

1:42:45

i'd be like man there when you get to that size that's a there's a mental

1:42:48

component there's something

1:42:51

happening there there's some trauma attached to it or there's a story that you're

1:42:54

living in in your

1:42:55

mind it's just a you know your body's just reacting to a pattern it's always

1:42:58

had that you haven't been

1:42:59

able to get it out it's there's something you've got to really go in and roll

1:43:03

the sleeves up and

1:43:04

find of kind of find it like i did every kind of thinking back to i had this

1:43:08

therapist did the coolest

1:43:09

thing joe she looked at me and said when do you first remember being big i

1:43:14

talked to my sister shelby

1:43:16

about this the other day and i said uh and she said what i said which made me

1:43:19

cry because i never

1:43:20

talked to my family about this and i go i think the first time i realized i was

1:43:25

big was i was going to

1:43:27

get school clothes for elementary school and then back then they had a section

1:43:30

in the dellard's called

1:43:31

husky you remember this you're old enough to remember they had a husky section

1:43:35

yeah that's crazy you know

1:43:36

which is awesome i guess but you know and i just remember like not knowing what

1:43:41

it meant but just

1:43:42

knowing it was different and knowing that like i felt different like i felt

1:43:47

like i felt ashamed even at

1:43:49

that age a little bit being in this section you know what i mean like and i

1:43:52

didn't understand why

1:43:53

well kids are so brutal too so brutal and then i talked to my sister the other

1:43:57

day and i go shelby

1:43:58

man um do you remember the first time that you that you thought i was an

1:44:03

overweight kid and she goes oh

1:44:06

yeah i'll never forget it dude we took you to some store and they had a husky

1:44:08

section and you you

1:44:09

couldn't fit the jeans you had to shop in the husky section and she said dude

1:44:12

it tore you apart

1:44:15

and i was like wow okay so i lived in that shame forever too forever you know

1:44:19

what i mean like just

1:44:20

that constant shame but i did that work in therapy you know what i mean it had

1:44:24

had related that's why

1:44:25

i said earlier sometimes when i'm in the pantry mary b would be like who's what

1:44:28

version of you is in

1:44:29

the pantry is it the kid you or is it the adult you that's not answering an

1:44:33

email because sometimes

1:44:36

this is how deep addiction runs sometimes that relapse will be caused by

1:44:40

literally

1:44:41

an unresponded email that you just let sit there and torture you but you don't

1:44:45

notice it because

1:44:46

it's just nagging at you just that why don't you just tell that guy that you're

1:44:49

not interested

1:44:50

why don't you just tell why are you avoiding that why are you avoiding that you

1:44:53

avoid everything

1:44:54

you avoid every this is your personality trait you know what there's thousands

1:44:56

of things you need

1:44:57

to be saying to people you start eating what you're not saying you know so like

1:45:01

distract yourself distract yourself even whenever i first got through this i

1:45:06

had to sit my wife down

1:45:07

bunny who is i talked about a lot of this podcast she is my anchor joe she's

1:45:11

the best thing i think

1:45:12

i've said this every time i've been in your podcast the single best thing that

1:45:15

ever happened to me was

1:45:16

marrying the right fucking woman for sure you know what i mean and um bunny i

1:45:21

sit down with bunny and i'm

1:45:23

what was we talking about i'm sorry i got so excited about my wife well you're

1:45:26

talking about

1:45:27

being husky shame why you don't answer emails distracting yourself distracting

1:45:32

it's like you're

1:45:32

just constant the food is um a way of not having to deal with or even say so i

1:45:37

sit bunny down i go baby

1:45:39

i'm probably going to start give me some grace i sit my whole house down and go

1:45:45

i'm going to try

1:45:45

to do an effort to communicate how i feel in real time and i might be abrasive

1:45:51

at first because

1:45:51

this is a new concept i normally have to go like chew on things for a few hours

1:45:56

to make sure i don't

1:45:57

misrepresent my thoughts you know what i mean i was like but sometimes in those

1:46:00

few hours i'll

1:46:00

find myself in the pantry to distract yourself yeah so i was like you know if y'all

1:46:05

just give me some

1:46:06

grace and what i need y'all to do is just be and be a mirror for me and just go

1:46:11

hey i got you but

1:46:13

think about the way you said that just just put it back just make me see it you

1:46:15

know what i mean

1:46:16

just mirror make me mirror it and uh they were so patient with me bunny bunny's

1:46:20

a gangster

1:46:20

though she'd be the first one to be like oh there goes a little that little

1:46:22

snippy there aren't we

1:46:23

the last holy huh i'd be like fair she'd be like we probably she's like i got

1:46:28

it probably could have

1:46:29

said it different love you i'd be like fair you know what i'm saying but it was

1:46:31

just me learning how

1:46:32

to communicate my thoughts and now it's like but it was so many of these little

1:46:36

trigger things that i

1:46:37

found that would be what would send me back and i call i keep saying the pantry

1:46:41

the pantry is the

1:46:42

gas station anywhere i can closet eat right i just give it a place it's like a

1:46:46

came cam was telling

1:46:47

me about the pain cave idea the other day it's like to me that's what the

1:46:50

pantry's always been

1:46:51

not the pain cave but the idea of it's a it represents a lot you know what i

1:46:55

mean but when

1:46:56

i'm in the pantry now i know why i can literally once again reset reconnect re-engage

1:47:02

you know what

1:47:03

i mean in any situation if i'm at a party now and i think about eating or i

1:47:06

think about drinking i

1:47:07

can go outside i can hit a joint twice i can reconnect with myself what do you

1:47:10

think about drinking

1:47:11

porn there what do you what do you need to prove who who who are you

1:47:14

embarrassed that you you're not

1:47:15

being cool enough around right now that you think it'll make you a little more

1:47:19

loose you know what

1:47:19

i mean like what get get be real with yourself jason what's wrong here right

1:47:23

right and then you get

1:47:24

it you're like yeah i'm being weird dude i don't need to go in there and drink

1:47:27

i'm cool you know what

1:47:27

i'm saying like you're becoming a different person yeah man yeah better version

1:47:31

of who you really are

1:47:32

yeah yeah and it's it's a beautiful thing because you're not just doing it for

1:47:38

you you're doing it

1:47:39

publicly and you doing it publicly is going to change the lives of countless

1:47:43

people there's there's

1:47:44

probably a million people right now that are listening to this that are

1:47:49

changing some aspect

1:47:50

of their life because of what you're saying that's why i didn't hide and do it

1:47:53

joe i've seen too many

1:47:55

other celebrities go get go get go in the dark and lose a bunch of weight and

1:47:58

try to come out with a

1:47:59

big reveal and it always just felt superficial and like it just didn't feel

1:48:03

right i was like yo man

1:48:05

we should just like post about this like every workout every day it's like it's

1:48:09

also good because

1:48:10

it makes you accountable makes you accountable or because you're you're putting

1:48:13

it out there to

1:48:14

the world as long as you're not reading the comments no no no fuck the comment

1:48:18

post i don't

1:48:19

even post it somebody else posted it's ghosted that's better that's better

1:48:22

because as long as you're not

1:48:25

dwelling on other people's opinions and thoughts and because a lot of those

1:48:29

people one of the things

1:48:31

that they do when they're saying negative things is they're avoiding introspection

1:48:34

they're avoiding

1:48:36

their own personal criticism of themselves so they're doing that by putting

1:48:41

that on you so by putting

1:48:43

negative thoughts on you and negative comments on you what they're really

1:48:47

showing is that they're damaged and

1:48:50

that they're avoiding that that self-analysis yeah that leads to you having to

1:48:57

make changes for

1:48:58

yourself so instead they're just shitting on other people yeah so there's a lot

1:49:02

of people that's an

1:49:03

addiction that's an addiction that's a giant addiction that people have not

1:49:06

just to being on social media

1:49:08

but to talking on so commenting on social media and being out you know just

1:49:13

being negative well my favorite

1:49:15

quote is the booze mean nothing to me i've seen what makes them cheer you know

1:49:19

what i mean yeah

1:49:21

you can't your booze mean nothing to me i've seen what you cheer at you know

1:49:24

what i'm saying it's like

1:49:25

you think i care about them booze it also reminds me of the story of the donkey

1:49:29

the dude the father and

1:49:30

the donkey i don't know if you've heard his story but the sons um the father's

1:49:33

walking with the son

1:49:34

and the son's riding a donkey and they're going through this little village and

1:49:37

somebody goes

1:49:38

won't you look at that look at that old man look uh look at that that poor boy's

1:49:42

making that old man

1:49:43

walk so the man thinks oh i don't want to think bad of my grandson so he tells

1:49:47

the grandson hey in

1:49:48

the next town right before we go i'm gonna hop on the donkey and you walk so he

1:49:51

hops on the donkey

1:49:52

and they start walking and somebody goes can you believe that old man's making

1:49:55

that little boy walk by

1:49:57

himself so he stops he says fuck it i'll just buy the kid a donkey so he buys

1:50:01

the kid a donkey

1:50:02

they're going through the next city and they're they're both walking beside

1:50:05

their donkeys

1:50:06

right no they're both on their donkeys and somebody goes well look at them two

1:50:10

people

1:50:10

just beating the death beating to death them poor old donkeys them old donkeys

1:50:14

just can't do nothing

1:50:15

he said the next time he could tell the grandson he goes fuck it we'll just

1:50:18

walk beside the donkeys

1:50:19

so they're walking besides the donkey and you know what somebody screams don't

1:50:22

you look at them

1:50:23

perfectly two good donkeys they're not using those donkeys should be getting

1:50:27

put to work

1:50:27

and the moral is he couldn't do anything to make anybody happy you know what i'm

1:50:30

saying it

1:50:30

it didn't matter what he can never make everybody happy because everybody's not

1:50:35

happy yeah that's the

1:50:37

thing it's like you can make happy people happy but you can't what percentage

1:50:42

of people are legitimately

1:50:43

happy it's hard to get happy it's difficult you know what else changed for me

1:50:47

was looking at happy

1:50:48

different i looked we had my wife has that quote in the house it says we no

1:50:52

longer search for happiness

1:50:54

we search to be useful it's like the moment i quit looking for my happiness now

1:50:59

i just look to be a tool

1:51:00

like i walk in every situation with my hands open like god what you got for me

1:51:04

here right

1:51:05

how can i bring value to this what can i do can i motivate like where can i be

1:51:09

a little piece of you

1:51:10

in this moment you know what i mean and um that changed everything now i'm

1:51:14

always by default

1:51:15

i'm always happy because i'm being useful right you know what i mean like there's

1:51:19

nothing more fulfilling

1:51:20

than being useful yeah but i wasn't i quit chasing happiness i just started

1:51:23

chasing being useful

1:51:24

that's beautiful yeah that's beautiful it's uh it's an amazing story man and

1:51:31

you're in the middle of

1:51:32

it you're you're not done well we've almost lost the weight the transformation

1:51:37

will be next

1:51:38

and the transformation joe that will be something to watch the weight loss that's

1:51:44

been cool to watch but

1:51:45

the transformation bubba i'm coming dude and what do you mean by the

1:51:48

transformation dude it's like i don't

1:51:50

i was i'm gonna like i see myself i've never been able to see myself like this

1:51:56

but like

1:51:57

i'm going to be like in top shape joe you know what i mean like i was watching

1:52:02

you with them kettlebells

1:52:03

today and while i'm running i was thinking to myself the next time i do this

1:52:07

podcast and joe has me back

1:52:08

god willing i'll fucking i'm gonna do that workout with him i'm gonna blow his

1:52:12

mind i'm gonna make him in

1:52:13

that action bronch is my friend so i say this out of love i'm gonna finish that

1:52:16

workout you're gonna

1:52:17

shake my hand be like dude you did better in action you know what i'm saying

1:52:19

like it's like

1:52:20

you know what i mean like i was watching it like i'm fucking coming for that

1:52:23

you know what i mean like

1:52:25

that's the kind of shape i want to be in like man stuff i didn't feel like a

1:52:28

man dude at 500 pounds

1:52:30

i couldn't walk a mile um my video guy andy you've met him a few times tall

1:52:34

ball guy that's real fun

1:52:35

he said something to me when i was losing his weight that broke my heart

1:52:39

because he's such a good kid

1:52:40

i got when i finally got down to like two seven three hundred he looked at me

1:52:44

and said dude you're

1:52:45

like i just need you under 250 and i was like what for and he was like because

1:52:49

then if anything ever

1:52:50

goes wrong i know i can throw 250 pounds over my shoulder and i can fire them

1:52:53

and carry you out of

1:52:54

somewhere and i was like what a sweet soul that you have secretly been looking

1:52:58

at me all these years

1:53:00

like what if something happens to the jelly and i can't get them up right you

1:53:03

know what i mean like

1:53:04

what a just genuine swell like i didn't realize how much my weight was

1:53:08

affecting everybody well people

1:53:09

who love you know that this is not sustainable and if they love you and they

1:53:14

love being around you they

1:53:16

go how much longer is he going to be here right yeah and when you're 40 years

1:53:21

old and you're 500 pounds

1:53:23

it's like the answer is not long yeah it's your body can't do you know and

1:53:28

everybody's different some

1:53:30

people don't even make it to 40. no i could feel it happening like i was i

1:53:34

would i was scared of the

1:53:35

way i would sleep in certain positions right like i would have nightmares that

1:53:39

i was gonna die stop

1:53:40

and if i rolled the other way i'd suffocate myself you know what i mean like it's

1:53:44

possible it was just

1:53:46

you know there uh if i i've rolled over one time on my stomach and i was so fat

1:53:50

that the way i rolled

1:53:51

over i trapped my left arm under me and my right arm almost wasn't strong

1:53:56

enough to get me up enough to

1:53:59

let the left arm loose oh my god i'm panicking like you're suffocating like i'm

1:54:04

gonna die right

1:54:05

here because i just physically don't have enough strength in one arm to get me

1:54:09

from you know you

1:54:10

roll over like this to get me up off of my other arm i can tell you right now i

1:54:14

could do 20 push-ups

1:54:15

though that's amazing i know it don't sound like a lot to the listener but from

1:54:18

where i'm coming from

1:54:19

big deal you know what i'm saying i'm in better shape than burt kreischer for

1:54:23

sure you know what

1:54:23

i'm saying i love you birdie boy yeah you've done what he wants to do that he

1:54:31

never can do i will

1:54:33

say this to him and tom boy they better bring their a game to the 5k this year

1:54:36

don't look up and i look

1:54:37

like uh tanner or truett haynes running with some uh jeans on yeah he's he's

1:54:45

interesting because he's

1:54:47

got it in him he can lose weight like when tom and him first had that weight

1:54:51

loss challenge

1:54:51

tom went with it and never went back tom looks great he's looks fucking amazing

1:54:58

he's thinner than

1:54:58

he's ever been before he's like 180 now brigham said he's getting in shape yeah

1:55:02

man he works out hard

1:55:03

i secretly want to beat him in the 5k but it's a big it's a big dude but i'm on

1:55:07

your ass tommy buns

1:55:09

when i met tommy tommy was like real big and he was eating bad and you know and

1:55:14

him and burt

1:55:15

both decided to have this weight loss challenge so we had this podcast together

1:55:21

they lost all the weight

1:55:22

you know and burt got pretty thin too man they both lost a lot of weight you

1:55:27

know they did it over the

1:55:28

whole month of october and then when they came in tom they all they weighed

1:55:32

each other on the scale and

1:55:34

tom won and so burt had to shave his beard and they did it you know live on the

1:55:39

air it was fun we had

1:55:40

a good time though but it was it was this moment where tom realized okay i don't

1:55:46

ever want to be fat

1:55:47

again and he never was fat again he just he gained a little bit of weight and

1:55:51

lost it again but he never

1:55:52

got fat again and now he looks fucking he looks tremendous i mean you go back

1:55:58

and watch his

1:55:59

earlier comedy specials where he's this big old moon face and then look at him

1:56:04

now you would never

1:56:04

even imagine that guy was ever fat no for sure it's back when he had the moon

1:56:08

face the black button down

1:56:09

and yeah he was balling up top yeah wouldn't commit yeah no totally different

1:56:12

time he's a different

1:56:13

human it's different human now and burt goes back and forth burt will lose a

1:56:18

bunch of weight and then

1:56:20

get big as fuck again yo-yo yeah with burt it's booze man it's booze it's all

1:56:24

booze for burt yeah

1:56:25

it's food too yeah i mean the motherfucker will go to mcdonald's and order like

1:56:31

30 big macs yeah he's a

1:56:33

fucking animal well you know how that is the left hand will wash the right hand

1:56:36

in those situations

1:56:37

you put a little alcohol in you you're not thinking you know what i think a caesar's

1:56:41

salad with a salmon is pretty good tonight you're like somebody take me to in

1:56:45

and out baby yeah i

1:56:46

relate i used my chef had a note one night we looked through all my weight loss

1:56:50

before this pod

1:56:51

and uh he had a note where i went drinking heavy one night and i was probably 515

1:56:55

pounds

1:56:56

and he was just like even in his note he was like not sustainable he can never

1:56:59

lose the weight

1:57:00

drinking this way you know what i mean like it was just ian larius was just

1:57:03

that and he sat me down

1:57:04

and was like bubba i don't care what i feed you i can't out work you get drunk

1:57:08

and you eat 3 000

1:57:10

calories of shit after you drank 3 000 calories of tequila right right you know

1:57:13

what i mean i was

1:57:14

like i gotta quit drinking yeah you know just just a stone cold thing i had to

1:57:17

come with it's terrible

1:57:19

for you and when you see burt with that enormous belly that's all just alcohol

1:57:24

and inflammation

1:57:26

it's like so bad for you and burt's 50 now you know it's like and we got the

1:57:31

same doctor god

1:57:32

no but yeah but burt don't listen no no burt don't listen i bet he's also he's

1:57:36

he's also an athlete

1:57:37

though the problem with burt is that that dude this is what i love about burt

1:57:40

that makes burt so

1:57:41

special is it burt you remember when he went about half marathon or marathon or

1:57:44

something without

1:57:45

training like he went a whole marathon without any training at all that's burt

1:57:49

and he was fat no

1:57:50

that he ran 26 miles yeah this is just like burt at who he is so yeah it's that

1:57:55

really hard thing to

1:57:56

tell a guy it's like yo be careful bubba but it's also like he go bust a 10k

1:58:00

out today if you made him

1:58:01

just out of spite you know what i'm saying like no he's he's got extraordinary

1:58:05

genetics that he abuses

1:58:07

mickey mantle gene dude it's real man it's fucking real dog yeah no it is real

1:58:12

it is real you know but

1:58:14

he's he's playing a game that you can never win right you'll never win that

1:58:19

game that eventually

1:58:21

one day your your your heart will go check please yeah and that's it yeah you

1:58:25

know and hopefully he

1:58:27

catches it before that yeah you know and that's what everybody who loves him

1:58:31

wants yeah it's just

1:58:32

he's got also got this mindset that his whole success is connected to him being

1:58:40

this party animal it's

1:58:41

not though it's connected to you being bird it's connected to you being one of

1:58:44

the most genuine

1:58:45

sweet funny show up for you dudes i've ever met in my life like six pack or 400

1:58:51

pounds dude your

1:58:52

heart is the size of a horse yeah you know what i mean like burt kreischer is

1:58:56

the new friends

1:58:57

that's one of the ones i pray for and burt kreischer cam haynes i prayed for

1:59:02

new friends he sent

1:59:02

me a bunch of really cool ones a bunch of wild ones joe rogan tony hinchcliffe

1:59:06

a bunch of

1:59:06

fuck-ups but they were good dudes you know what i'm saying like real real

1:59:10

slightly outside of normal people but are great guys you know and burt kreischer's

1:59:15

a great my his

1:59:16

friendship's done a lot for me i hope me showing up he hasn't really he's seen

1:59:21

me but whenever at

1:59:21

wrestling but i think when i show up to this 5k and i do it in 30 minutes i

1:59:25

hope that's the

1:59:26

moment burt's like all right baby i'm with you jelly you know what i'm saying

1:59:29

well he's just got to

1:59:30

realize that his success will always be there he doesn't have to be drunk to

1:59:34

have that success

1:59:35

like he'll he'll he does sober october sometimes and one time recently he did

1:59:39

it and he called me up

1:59:41

and he's like uh i just haven't been drinking i feel so much better and i

1:59:46

really think i'm done i go you

1:59:48

should be done man you don't need it you don't need it he's like you're right i

1:59:51

think i'm done and then

1:59:52

right back to it yeah you know it's it's hard but in those moments of clarity

1:59:57

he realizes

1:59:59

maybe he'll hear this and he's funny that'll be it he's i think he's funny

2:00:02

either way oh he'll be

2:00:04

funny either way yeah i've woke up with more he's hilarious yeah he'll probably

2:00:07

be more funny bird

2:00:08

at breakfast to me is just funny as bird at night yeah oh for sure yeah for

2:00:13

sure it's in healthier it's

2:00:16

i've been very fortunate in life one of the most fortunate things though is the

2:00:23

group of people that

2:00:24

i've been connected to it's very like we were talking about that it's very

2:00:29

important it's very

2:00:31

important and bert is connected to a lot of really good people and hopefully

2:00:35

that'll lead him on a

2:00:37

similar i mean everybody has their own timeline everybody has their own way of

2:00:41

doing it everybody

2:00:42

has to have their own moment too you know i had to have mine i just my thing

2:00:46

for bert or anybody out

2:00:47

there is that if you're just don't let it get there if you can right i just

2:00:52

pray man if i i feel like

2:00:53

i don't think i'm making this up when i say i think i was six to 12 months away

2:00:56

from missing it

2:00:57

especially traveling you know i travel 280 days a year right at 500 something

2:01:03

pounds yeah 200 flights

2:01:05

a year 250 flights a year so bad i just i couldn't i wasn't going to be able to

2:01:09

do it i knew it

2:01:10

you know what i mean and um and lucky once again i had a wife that was just

2:01:14

super supportive she was

2:01:15

supportive through all the faces though but she was just like yo this is time

2:01:19

and she went out of

2:01:20

her way the first the first three months of the diet i probably left this part

2:01:23

out because i'm

2:01:24

embarrassed about it but i'll shit tell it the first three months of the diet i

2:01:26

had to sit down with

2:01:27

her and go look i need you to hide the food like i will find it you know what i'm

2:01:32

saying like i need

2:01:34

you to hide the food so her and my daughter bailey found like all these cool

2:01:37

like i still don't know

2:01:39

where they were i never found it you know what i mean but they hid everything

2:01:42

for me like there was

2:01:43

nights i'd walk in that pantry and it would be like a banana you know what i'm

2:01:46

saying i'd be like

2:01:47

the entire pantry was god i'd be like fair you know what i mean like it was

2:01:51

cool but once again it

2:01:52

goes back to the fox the mole and the horse i never asked for help before right

2:01:56

i never would

2:01:56

get out of my own ego enough i just say everything i was going to do and then

2:01:59

not do it and then get

2:02:00

mad when they ask when they try to encouragingly but maybe even more

2:02:03

importantly you were helping

2:02:04

yourself you it wasn't just you were asking for help that you weren't asking

2:02:09

for help while you

2:02:10

weren't doing anything you were asking for help while you were helping yourself

2:02:14

and they were like

2:02:14

okay i think he's really doing this that's it yeah there's really a change

2:02:18

going on and let's try to

2:02:20

help rain walk yeah whenever they yeah you don't have to go and then when i

2:02:23

went they cheered it

2:02:24

it's a great moment that it did happen in the rain you know because it makes it

2:02:27

even more

2:02:28

significant it makes it more you know meaningful it's so real yeah i keep

2:02:32

mentioning god because

2:02:33

my faith in him grows so much stronger every day but i truly believe that that

2:02:38

was a god thing

2:02:38

you know what i mean that almost this weird thing that's like you know you walk

2:02:41

out and be like you

2:02:42

know what even the hill dude i've i've lived on hills my whole life and never

2:02:47

walked up one i'm from

2:02:48

tennessee they're nothing but hills i go downhill that's what i do it's a fat

2:02:52

person trait you know what

2:02:53

i'm saying we look cooler move faster you know yeah and immediately just like

2:02:57

no man we're hitting

2:02:58

hills dude like every time i can hit a hill i'm now looking for hills in life

2:03:03

you know what i mean

2:03:04

like i'm looking for like how can i make this run a little harder like when cam

2:03:08

tells me we're at mile

2:03:09

five he's like i'm proud of you did your pr i was like we better do six two

2:03:12

then baby it ain't a 10k

2:03:13

if we don't do another mile point two you know what i mean like immediately i

2:03:17

was like we gotta go

2:03:18

yeah it's just been it's the it's the it's the effort but helping the self

2:03:22

knowing you want to

2:03:23

change and then not being afraid to just go ask not being ashamed to just go to

2:03:26

your wife because

2:03:27

that's a little embarrassing and be like hey can you just like had the dark

2:03:31

chocolate and they're

2:03:33

who dark chocolate bars bunny's extremely healthy you know what i mean like has

2:03:36

always been them who

2:03:37

talk talk about they're so good but the problem is i don't know how to eat one

2:03:40

they're only 380

2:03:41

calories but if there's five of them in there right i will eat all five for

2:03:44

sure you know what i'm saying

2:03:46

you know so some nights you leave me a little half a bar out or something you

2:03:48

know what i mean like

2:03:49

rations until i until i could control it until i knew that and then now now my

2:03:53

pantry's back full

2:03:55

well now you're addicted to the success of what you've already accomplished

2:03:58

which is a good addiction

2:04:00

it's a good addiction being addicted to being healthy is the best addiction you

2:04:04

could find because i don't

2:04:05

think you're going to get out of the addiction mindset i think what addiction

2:04:10

is i think there's a reason

2:04:11

why it exists in the human mind and i think it exists because it's the same

2:04:16

thing as obsession

2:04:17

and obsession allows you to be a successful hunter it's like hunter's

2:04:21

persistence if you don't have

2:04:23

that obsessive drive you won't keep going until you're succeeding and if you do

2:04:31

if you do have that you'll

2:04:33

feed your family if you don't have that everybody dies i think that's like

2:04:37

programmed into the human

2:04:39

psyche it's programmed into the human mind but it can be hijacked by gambling

2:04:43

it could be hijacked by

2:04:45

pornography it could be hijacked by video games it could be hijacked by a host

2:04:49

of different things

2:04:50

drugs alcohol anything food fill fill in the blank i think that that is where

2:04:56

it happens you get addicted

2:04:58

to all kinds of things that are negative or you can get addicted to positive

2:05:02

things meaningful

2:05:03

conversations yeah exercise sure i'm addicted to meaningful conversations yeah

2:05:08

i used to be addicted

2:05:09

to small talk it's hard to find them you know it's hard to find stuff like this

2:05:13

like meaningful like

2:05:15

rich i'm i'm searching for rich conversations even in my relationships with my

2:05:19

wife like

2:05:20

in my health you're like our conversations are getting deeper yeah you know

2:05:24

what i mean like like

2:05:25

i never thought i could know this woman i love so much better but i'm getting

2:05:28

to know her better

2:05:29

like we're getting deeper in the foxhole together we're getting deeper in the

2:05:33

in the shadows of each

2:05:34

other's crevices it's like i'm looking for that i'm looking to pour into people

2:05:38

man it's just dude

2:05:39

yeah it's that's another thing about phones that makes it very difficult you

2:05:44

know for people to have

2:05:45

meaningful conversations because everybody's so attached their goddamn devices

2:05:49

even when you're

2:05:50

talking to them they're checking this and checking that you feel they're going

2:05:54

yeah yeah oh yeah that's

2:05:55

real oh yeah and they're just scrolling and half paying attention to you it's a

2:06:00

lot it's a lot it's

2:06:02

hard it's like one of the things that i've said about this podcast is like one

2:06:05

of the most unexpected

2:06:06

things about it is this education that i've got in talking to people uh not

2:06:12

just like listening to

2:06:13

their stories and listening to whatever their expertise is and but it's also

2:06:17

just the learning how

2:06:18

to talk to people because you're sitting here for three hours or whatever it is

2:06:24

with no distractions

2:06:25

and no interruptions and because of that you learn this sort of ebb and flow of

2:06:31

human conversation so

2:06:32

for me it's so hard to have a bad conversation when i'm out with people that

2:06:37

are bad at having

2:06:38

conversations to me it's fucking painful it's like oh god yeah it's like i it

2:06:44

drives me crazy yeah it's

2:06:47

so one watching people talk over people watching people that aren't listening

2:06:51

they're just waiting

2:06:52

for their time to talk like yeah it's such a connection man and and a lot of

2:06:58

those people that

2:06:59

are missing that is goes into these the byproducts of lack of connection are

2:07:05

addiction isolation uh loneliness

2:07:09

um these are the side effects of not connecting with people yeah you know what

2:07:15

i mean and that phone

2:07:17

has tricked us into thinking that we're connecting with thousands of people

2:07:20

right and we're actually

2:07:21

not connecting with anybody not connecting with a single person we're being

2:07:25

more lonely and more

2:07:26

comparative it's a trap yeah it's a real trap because you're you're getting

2:07:30

input there's some

2:07:31

input there's some words that come from a person i guess and so but there's no

2:07:36

human like we're designed

2:07:38

to talk to each other this way the the the spiritual fulfillment the

2:07:42

psychological fulfillment that comes

2:07:44

from talking to a human being and making a genuine connection and understanding

2:07:48

more about that person and

2:07:49

by also doing that you understand more about yourself like when someone reveals

2:07:54

something to you that's very

2:07:56

meaningful and very intimate like you go oh wow like what is it about why is

2:08:01

that

2:08:02

maybe i could be better at that maybe i could do this or maybe i can maybe i'm

2:08:07

looking at myself the

2:08:09

wrong way or looking at people the wrong way and you know and you just like

2:08:13

this slow learning

2:08:14

process of how to interact with people better and it's it's that's all kids

2:08:18

today that are on their phone

2:08:20

all day long they're the psychologically stunted you know that's we're stunting

2:08:25

their social growth and

2:08:26

their development of just most people don't most kids today barely know how to

2:08:30

communicate with each

2:08:32

other especially even long form like this it's the ability to really get you

2:08:37

don't really know how

2:08:39

somebody feels about something until you really get into a conversation like a

2:08:42

real conversation and

2:08:44

these kids aren't having those conversations with each other it's all in micro

2:08:48

clips and micro spots and

2:08:50

me and my daughter talk about this a lot because lucky for i was i was blessed

2:08:54

that she's a

2:08:55

conversationalist she's kind of she's like me she will have a meaningful

2:08:58

conversation

2:08:59

so i'm i'm but i look at my nine-year-old who's a little younger than her

2:09:03

obviously she's 17 my

2:09:05

daughter goes to college next year and my nine-year-old's a little different

2:09:08

though he doesn't

2:09:09

he communicates good but he's still in that you know video game world like he

2:09:13

just it's a different

2:09:14

thing where bailey still really appreciates us sit around the i don't know man

2:09:18

i grew up in a household

2:09:19

where we i told you this story my mom would sit at the kitchen table and tell

2:09:22

us stories like me and

2:09:23

you were talking right now for hours we had a jre every night you know what i'm

2:09:28

saying you know

2:09:29

she'd smoke cigarettes and tell stories and it was just like super charming and

2:09:33

you know it's um so

2:09:35

my daughter grew up a lot like that and i'm really proud of that you know that

2:09:38

she grew up sitting in

2:09:39

a room and having those kind of calmer like real long form because that's how

2:09:42

you know how you really

2:09:43

feel about it's what therapy did for me too was whenever i quit doing things at

2:09:47

a surface level

2:09:48

when it started going yeah that's cool but like really when was the first time

2:09:52

you remember being fat

2:09:53

i think people have a hunger for it which is why um this emergence of long-form

2:10:00

conversations into the

2:10:01

zeitgeist has been surprising to a lot of people because you know when i first

2:10:06

started doing this

2:10:07

podcast one of the funny things that ari shaffir always said to me that i'll

2:10:11

never let him live it

2:10:12

down because he was always like you gotta edit your show i go why he goes

2:10:16

nobody wants to listen in

2:10:17

three hours i go then don't listen i don't care i go it's i'm doing it for no

2:10:21

money anyway like

2:10:22

back then it was like it was it was costing me money i was like i'm just doing

2:10:25

it for fun man

2:10:26

i don't care i put it out there if they don't want to listen to the whole thing

2:10:29

they don't have to

2:10:29

listen to the whole thing there's another one coming out in a couple days

2:10:32

listen to that one

2:10:33

listen to five minutes i don't give a fuck right and he was like you should

2:10:36

edit it it's gonna

2:10:37

fuck up your show and i'm like all right whatever and then now i'm like

2:10:40

remember when you told me

2:10:41

that haha because i don't think that people realize how many people are

2:10:46

starving for real conversation

2:10:50

just the you know this is one of the reasons why like when that kamala harris

2:10:54

thing went down

2:10:55

where i had trump on the podcast and kamala harris kept resisting coming on the

2:11:00

podcast

2:11:00

they wanted to do it for like 45 minutes they wanted to do it in a conference

2:11:04

room with a bunch

2:11:04

of aids around they wanted to do it in dc i was like no no it has to be here

2:11:11

and it has to be three

2:11:12

hours like she's got to sit down like because it takes a while to get inside

2:11:18

someone's head

2:11:19

you gotta if you taught you could bullshit me for 40 minutes easy for 40

2:11:25

minutes you could have a

2:11:26

bunch of canned speeches and a bunch of shit you prepared and a bunch of like

2:11:30

bullshit answers but

2:11:31

i'll ask you like what you like to cook yeah i'll ask you like do you exercise

2:11:36

i'll ask you what's your

2:11:37

favorite book i'll ask you like all kinds of different things and then we'll

2:11:41

start talking

2:11:42

we'll start talking about like did you ever think you were going to be this

2:11:44

person like what what you

2:11:46

know what what led you here like what and give me some real shit give me some

2:11:51

real well you can't

2:11:53

this is why i've always loved your pod is that it's where i go find out who

2:11:56

people are yeah because

2:11:58

it's so easy and i'm in the media right to go sit down for 20 minutes and like

2:12:03

smile and just get it

2:12:06

out of the way you know what i mean but like yeah exactly but it's like you

2:12:10

give me three hours with

2:12:11

somebody they got to show me who they are yeah somebody's joe's gonna find out

2:12:16

who this person

2:12:17

is you know what i mean like he's gonna it's like and that's back to like

2:12:20

because we don't know who

2:12:21

we are until we start having real conversations right it goes back to back to

2:12:24

what i mean you started

2:12:25

with this is that we don't know who we are until you started having real car i

2:12:29

don't know how it

2:12:29

started whether it was in the green room with some of your comic friends you

2:12:32

were like dude we have

2:12:32

the greatest conversations in here we should do this you know what i mean like

2:12:35

these are funny i

2:12:36

don't know but something happened where you recognize like this is rare that

2:12:39

people have

2:12:40

conversations this funny this good but also this cathartic like there's moments

2:12:44

we've laughed we've

2:12:45

cried like it's every podcast of yours you know what i mean where because you

2:12:48

can't spend three

2:12:49

hours with somebody and not see the full dynamic human yeah and i think there's

2:12:53

a hunger that

2:12:54

people have for finding out that other people have similar thoughts to them and

2:12:58

how and maybe not

2:13:00

even maybe different thoughts in similar situations and that someone has had a

2:13:04

better way of approaching

2:13:05

something and it's educational like to your soul there's something about it

2:13:11

about like we all want to

2:13:13

pretend that we exist in a vacuum and everybody wants to pretend they're a loner

2:13:17

and i'd rather be alone

2:13:18

like shut up no you wouldn't you'd only rather be alone if the people around

2:13:22

you suck if the people

2:13:24

around me suck yeah i'd rather be alone but i have great friends i like being

2:13:28

around my friends it's

2:13:29

like it's it's not shallow to want to be around a bunch of awesome people but

2:13:34

there's this thought

2:13:35

that like you know that we we are that we exist

2:13:41

on our own and you don't we're a collective like the human species itself is a

2:13:51

hive and it's one of

2:13:53

the things we're learning about the negative impacts of that hive being

2:13:56

connected to social media because

2:13:58

you're not really connecting with people but we're also experiencing this thing

2:14:02

that's similar to a hive

2:14:04

and so there's a uh a writer avi levinovitz who talks about this and the way he

2:14:11

described it

2:14:12

described it rather is that it's like processed food you're getting processed

2:14:17

information and instead of

2:14:19

real information like on social media you're getting this processed thing that's

2:14:24

boiled down with no

2:14:25

nutrients in it but you keep consuming it because you're so hungry because you're

2:14:29

not getting the

2:14:30

real thing you're just stuffing your face with stuffing your mind with process

2:14:34

information i think

2:14:36

that's an apt way to put it because that's really what's going on it's like we

2:14:39

all want real

2:14:41

connection we're just worried we're worried that someone's going to reject us

2:14:45

we're worried that someone's

2:14:46

going to be rude to us we're worried that someone's judging us that someone's

2:14:49

going to think they're

2:14:50

better than us or they're going to think we lack or whatever it is there's this

2:14:55

like there's a thing

2:14:57

that we all hunger for and i think for a lot of people the what they get if

2:15:02

they don't have it near

2:15:04

them if they haven't done what you've done and found a great group of friends

2:15:09

they can get it through

2:15:11

podcasts they can get it through people talking and communicating and being

2:15:16

real and and being

2:15:17

interested and being curious and learning and just being being cool to each

2:15:22

other and and it's it's

2:15:23

it's heartwarming it's like it fills something in you that we're that we're

2:15:28

missing because we're being

2:15:29

poisoned by these fucking devices and we're only seeing these little snippets

2:15:34

of people like back to the

2:15:36

conversation like we see comments x amount like a paragraph yeah and then we

2:15:40

people building entire

2:15:42

thoughts around a paragraph and you don't even know what that dude's thought

2:15:45

was it's just a

2:15:46

paragraph on the internet you didn't actually talk to that guy to see what that

2:15:50

was you know what i

2:15:51

mean like it's it's that that thing of like i had it i don't know i didn't plan

2:15:56

on talking about

2:15:57

this but it's a perfect time because i learned such a lesson in it i was on my

2:16:00

laptop one day on

2:16:01

instagram.com and it was the day of the double awards which is a christian

2:16:05

music awards and i

2:16:06

had a gospel song get nominated for a grammy this year what's it called the

2:16:08

double awards the dove

2:16:09

d-o-v awards and it's like the christian grammys okay it's been around for a

2:16:14

long time gospel music

2:16:16

association i have a i did a song with a christian artist this year named brandon

2:16:20

lake it's called

2:16:20

hard fought hallelujah it's i got to sing it at the vatican joe oh wow i got to

2:16:24

sing this we pull

2:16:25

that clip jamie of me at the vatican i sang in saint peter's square joe oh my

2:16:30

god first live

2:16:31

concert ever in saint peter's square right outside of saint peter saint peter's

2:16:35

basilica was our this

2:16:36

is it wow right here watch saint peter's basilica look that's the basilica

2:16:41

right there i got goose

2:16:43

look at that that's the square bubba that's vatican city look at this that's

2:16:48

incredible i will tell

2:16:49

you that's incredible biasly it might have been my best vocal performance of my

2:16:53

career wow

2:16:55

look at that joe but you're already losing weight by then yeah no for sure this

2:17:00

was about six months

2:17:00

ago shows you how much i've lost since then you look like a different person

2:17:03

even now to then dude

2:17:05

what's funny when you're five when you're 500 pounds you lose 20 pounds you don't

2:17:09

really see it

2:17:10

beautiful that dude i i went out to sound check joe and of course you all know

2:17:15

i'm emotional by now

2:17:16

but i couldn't even get through sound check i was crying so hard but watch this

2:17:20

part right here you'll

2:17:21

see my hand shaking i'm shaking up there you see it wow i am shaking my you see

2:17:25

the mic watch the

2:17:25

microphone hand because it's the one that doesn't lie y'all know that the other

2:17:29

one you can shake

2:17:29

while you're moving it but the microphone hand look at it yeah yeah wow it was

2:17:35

um wow and i'll tell

2:17:38

you a story about this incredible i know i keep bringing up god things but they

2:17:42

called me to do this

2:17:43

and it was um pharrell and andrea bocelli put this together okay and i love pharrell

2:17:50

he's a dear

2:17:50

dear became a friend of mine sweet guy and i go okay cool and i get there and

2:17:53

teddy swims is there

2:17:54

and uh jennifer huts i love taste teddy swims is the dude baby oh man that dude's

2:17:58

got a voice

2:17:59

he's got a voice it is red you you had him on yet no we've been talking though

2:18:04

we're gonna do it

2:18:05

please his next album for his next he's a he's a good conversation too man i

2:18:09

believe it

2:18:09

sweet so little georgia boy okay just southerners southern as collard greens

2:18:13

you're gonna love me he's

2:18:13

just like me he reminds me of you he's he's the sweetest that motherfucker can

2:18:18

sing his ass off

2:18:19

it's not fair whoo it's not fair i want to sing with but but but chelly and i

2:18:24

mean if you're standing

2:18:24

next to but chelly and you got a voice think about that so i get there and i'm

2:18:28

like all right

2:18:29

so what's the story here and everybody was either singing with pharrell or bocelli

2:18:35

but me i was the only person in that whole event that was singing alone so i

2:18:39

get super nervous i'm

2:18:41

like why did i end up alone you know what i'm saying i was like i was like oh

2:18:48

shit if brandon

2:18:49

lake couldn't make it for some reason i was like this is bad i've never been

2:18:52

more nervous i go out

2:18:53

for sound check i'm bawling crying and i'm like dude this is so crazy and then

2:18:58

i walk out and i'm like

2:19:00

when i go to do it right before i go out they come to me go hey jennifer hudson's

2:19:03

going to come

2:19:04

out at the very end and do hallelujah with you or just do hallelujah you just

2:19:07

praise for a minute

2:19:08

while she does it i was like the jennifer hudson they were like yeah i was like

2:19:12

so jennifer hudson

2:19:13

walks over to me i love her she goes all right what do you want she's so sweet

2:19:17

she's like i'm open

2:19:18

for notes you got any suggestions it's one of the greatest female vocalists

2:19:21

ever i do not have a

2:19:22

suggestion we'll start there i am jennifer i'm embarrassed you have to sing

2:19:25

near me but i'm

2:19:26

you know what i'm saying and i'm like and she goes and then it hit me and i

2:19:30

looked at her and i'll never

2:19:31

forget this moment she goes what do you think we should do i said we give them

2:19:34

jesus i said i think

2:19:36

that's why i'm here alone i think you know i'm the one that's supposed to bring

2:19:40

jesus here like i know

2:19:41

it's a jesus thing obviously but like we're supposed this is supposed to be a

2:19:44

she grew up in the south

2:19:45

too she grew up chicago you know she grew up midwest and i go this is supposed

2:19:48

to be the church we grew

2:19:49

up in jennifer she was like that's all i needed to hear oh joe just when i had

2:19:54

the best vocal

2:19:56

performance of my life jennifer hudson comes out and takes them to church we it's

2:20:00

a full praise and

2:20:01

worship at that point 200 choir members hands up in the sky we're in front of

2:20:05

saint peter's facility

2:20:05

they're worshiping out there dude hands are in the sky dude it was it would

2:20:09

watch it after the show if

2:20:11

you can it's worth five minutes it'll it'll make you tear up a little bit dude

2:20:14

it was like tear up right

2:20:15

now it was oh dude it was such a jesus moment i even started i'm looking at the

2:20:20

card and i'm going

2:20:21

can we get a little praise for jesus in here tonight can we get a little praise

2:20:25

for jesus in here tonight

2:20:27

and i'm just you can see the veins in my face joe i don't remember it i just

2:20:32

was just there you

2:20:33

know what i mean like it's just wow i just literally

2:20:36

look right then and this is where jennifer hutchins finna come out wow

2:20:45

there's people lined up in the street too this is oh dude what you don't see is

2:20:49

the only reason you

2:20:49

don't see people on the side streets is because they finally got rid of them

2:20:52

when it first opened

2:20:53

there was like all over rome you just could not move like like six seven

2:20:59

hundred thousand people

2:21:00

were down there trying to see this thing it was the first time they've ever

2:21:03

done live music at the

2:21:04

vatican that's i could not believe i got that call joe that's great but anyway

2:21:09

i got there i was

2:21:10

i just kept being more confused i was like hold on i'm the only one that's not

2:21:13

singing with the two

2:21:14

people that put this event together literally the only artist because jennifer

2:21:17

hutchins sang with

2:21:18

them teddy swang with them i was like what am i here for you know what i'm

2:21:22

saying i just could not

2:21:23

figure it out i never had more imposter syndrome wow and i prayed and i was

2:21:28

like god i cuss i smoke i

2:21:30

am i don't how about how am i being a vessel here like i don't like and then

2:21:33

that's whenever i was just

2:21:34

i heard it just so clear like dude just just open your hands just yeah got you

2:21:42

yeah i want to play

2:21:44

you something so you remember that craig morgan moment where you you talked

2:21:50

about it when you were

2:21:51

on stage at the opry oh yeah almost home yeah it's one of the coolest let's

2:21:55

play that i want to play

2:21:57

that because we're going to show you something i'm going to show you something

2:22:00

um that was a really

2:22:03

powerful moment because you were talking about how you would listen to that

2:22:08

song in prison

2:22:09

you know and um and how you went to the opry and you sat there i think you were

2:22:17

in the seventh row

2:22:19

exactly where i was six or seventh i was right back there stage left and you

2:22:23

and you talked about

2:22:24

it when you were on stage the first time you were ever on stage at the opry i

2:22:27

want to play that first

2:22:28

and we're going to play something else yeah it was crazy dude do you have it

2:22:32

jamie you want me to send

2:22:33

it to you yo while you're looking that up can i do something right quick yeah i'm

2:22:39

in love my wife's

2:22:41

got a book coming out everybody's called stripped down it's coming out in february

2:22:44

she finally wrote her

2:22:44

life story i've never been more proud of a human in my life y'all i'm so proud

2:22:47

of you in february

2:22:48

you deserve this girl beautiful i brought you a copy here it took me 36 years

2:22:53

to make it to the stage

2:22:54

big jelly 500 pounds look at the size of the most special

2:22:59

i'm gonna sing y'all some music for the soul from the soul this song is called

2:23:13

son of a sinner baby

2:23:17

you got that plaque

2:23:29

i never get lonely i got these girls to keep me company i took the review off

2:23:35

of this so

2:23:36

i'm gonna be more honest than i probably should be in 2008 i was incarcerated

2:23:47

in a local penitentiary

2:23:49

i had made some horrible decisions i found strength and music

2:24:03

while incarcerated i had a little girl she's in the crowd tonight she's now 13

2:24:19

years old

2:24:20

i remember sitting in my jail bunk when i knew she was born and thinking i had

2:24:33

to do something to

2:24:33

change my life i came home and i pursued the dream of music by selling mixtapes

2:24:38

and t-shirts out of the

2:24:39

trunk of my car right here in nashville tennessee

2:24:43

i married my best friend we have full custody of that 13 year old now

2:24:52

in that jail cell i found strength in country music i used to listen to craig

2:24:56

morgan sing almost home

2:24:57

in my jail cell and think i'm gonna change my life when i get home i came home

2:25:01

and googled

2:25:02

craig morgan live performance and he was right here at the grand old opry i sat

2:25:06

right there with

2:25:07

that man with the ball cap and the seventh row back on this row is sitting no

2:25:10

line i watched craig

2:25:13

cry for those of y'all that don't know i make music for the broken i make music

2:25:18

for the have-nots

2:25:19

and the lost causes in life the ones that have been through something and overcame

2:25:22

it if you

2:25:22

haven't been that person you know somebody who has and i represent that person

2:25:27

i want to dedicate

2:25:28

this song to everybody who's ever felt worthless and found their way out of

2:25:31

that dark place this

2:25:32

record is certified gold it is called save me thank you

2:25:52

oh

2:26:22

reporter

2:26:52

brian from zanys

2:27:08

what is it like seeing yourself dude what is it like seeing yourself that big

2:27:19

and seeing yourself in

2:27:20

that well huge moment one i love you man you tricked me again i was i thought

2:27:24

we were getting off the

2:27:25

pod so i was like oh i just want to show my wife's book out right quick and

2:27:28

then you were showing me

2:27:29

video i'm gonna show you something else too i didn't think i'd make a joke i'm

2:27:35

gonna show you this

2:27:36

buddy give me some volume congratulations on all the great things happening in

2:27:42

your career

2:27:43

and to thank you for the positive difference you're making in the lives of so

2:27:46

many people who need the

2:27:47

help you're doing great work buddy and i'll never forget meeting you on the

2:27:50

grand old opry and how

2:27:51

much it meant to me to hear you say my music helped you get through some really

2:27:56

tough times

2:27:57

that's one thing country music does really well

2:27:59

and who would have ever dreamed back then that i'd be back at the opry house

2:28:05

today

2:28:06

to say jelly roll you're officially invited to become a member of the grand old

2:28:10

opry

2:28:11

it's an honor to say welcome to the family brother

2:28:18

he wanted to play that for you when you're here

2:28:22

have a hook yeah for sure

2:28:36

come on i love you too

2:28:42

yeah joe that's like it don't get no bigger in country music bubba

2:28:49

it's as big as a kiss yo you know what a fucking grand old opry dog

2:28:54

oh dude i used to buy tickets to go there

2:28:59

and i remember i googled man i cried a lot on this pot it's okay i googled um

2:29:06

craig morgan i heard almost home in jail and uh you've heard the song right it's

2:29:11

like the most

2:29:11

tear-jerking song about a homeless man and it just reminded me of jail just you

2:29:16

know no matter

2:29:16

where you are the mind's strong and it just i came home and the song meant so

2:29:21

much i was like

2:29:21

craig morgan live it's like grand old opry house and i was like i'll go

2:29:24

i could barely afford tickets i think i talked to some girl in the bottom for

2:29:27

me

2:29:27

i went sat by myself i had an ankle bracelet on so there's a show he'd show

2:29:31

went off at nine

2:29:32

i had to be home at nine so i was like if he's the last one i'm screwed

2:29:34

and he comes out and sings almost home and i had

2:29:38

i'm not bullshitting i'd maybe cried 10 times in my life at that point and i

2:29:43

cried

2:29:44

i cried i cried like i'm crying here now and um i just remember thinking man

2:29:54

i want to make people what i can't believe they made me a member of the hopper

2:30:00

dog um

2:30:00

i want to make people feel the way he makes me feel that's what i want to do

2:30:06

well you've done that

2:30:08

man you've done it brother but did it joe man that's crazy joe oh dude fuck oh

2:30:18

dude i bet i'm

2:30:19

the first person that ever got invited to the handle offer on podcast that's

2:30:22

awesome oh

2:30:24

sorry let's see it with me for a second i just i figured you did it brother

2:30:29

dude that uh you did

2:30:31

what you wanted to do that feeling that he gave you you've given to many many

2:30:35

people

2:30:36

it's an incredible gift you know there's such so few people in life that have

2:30:45

touched people the

2:30:46

way you've touched people thank you joe man it's just what a dream dude i used

2:30:53

to i used to write

2:30:55

on my vision board my wife first got together that your podcast was the number

2:30:58

one thing i

2:30:59

want to do every year because i always felt like i'd have a joe dirt moment on

2:31:02

here you know i always

2:31:03

felt like somewhere i'd be sitting here telling my story and the world would be

2:31:06

tuning in you

2:31:07

know and to be fuck the fact that i'm on your podcast fact you're my friend

2:31:11

dude i love you

2:31:12

brother i love you brother thank you man of course thanks for letting me on the

2:31:15

podcast but

2:31:16

i just never thought this was a journey dude i thought i'd die young or i

2:31:20

thought i'd kill myself

2:31:21

i didn't think i was gonna be able to figure it out you figured it out you're

2:31:25

figuring it out more

2:31:26

every day every day and i think through that other people are as well i hope so

2:31:31

they're figuring

2:31:31

out their life for sure just through your songs through your words through your

2:31:35

acts through your

2:31:36

deeds through your life through the way you've chosen this new path for sure

2:31:41

for sure you're changing

2:31:43

people's lives oh man you are you are changing people's lives i will tell you

2:31:48

100 without doubt

2:31:50

you're changing people's lives and you're enriching people's lives by being you

2:31:56

by being a real person

2:31:58

going through a real life moment yeah you know and uh and doing it the right

2:32:03

way yes sir yeah slow it's

2:32:05

not easy no it doesn't have to be easy telling the truth ain't always fun no no

2:32:09

it's not it's not

2:32:11

supposed to be easy if it was easy it wouldn't be so fun gratifying though yeah

2:32:16

dude god joe man a

2:32:18

member of the grand old opry dog my name on the sheet bubba when you come in

2:32:22

the back of the grand

2:32:23

old opry they have them all and um i'm shaking joe like when that deer was in

2:32:27

his stand uh they have

2:32:29

these plaques that they put the name on and the first wall has only got two

2:32:32

rows left of plaques

2:32:34

wow i played there a couple months ago and i remember looking going thinking to

2:32:38

myself the

2:32:39

negative guy in me was like fuck i'm gonna i'm gonna be on the new wall if i

2:32:42

ever make it it won't

2:32:43

be on this one you know what i mean you know it's just like even then i was

2:32:46

having a moment where i

2:32:47

was like if they ever actually do you know i never thought i'd like when um

2:32:52

when jordan and jen invited

2:32:53

me to the grand old opry i i never thought that would happen i never thought

2:32:56

that i'd be allowed to

2:32:58

play the grand old opry you know what i mean yeah and then to be a member of it

2:33:01

and i'll never forget

2:33:02

watching luke combs when they asked him to be a member and just just like i

2:33:05

think it's the first

2:33:06

time i ever seen luke emotional you know and i just remember being like nah it'll

2:33:11

never happen

2:33:12

just like i remember looking at cam like i'll never be able to run a 5k or you

2:33:14

know what i mean like

2:33:15

yeah like man i don't know what can happen dude man if god gets involved you

2:33:19

have a little humility

2:33:20

i think the rest can work itself out joe you know what i mean amazing things

2:33:24

can happen if you live

2:33:25

your life true ooh ooh baby amazing things can happen if you live your life

2:33:32

true well i know you

2:33:35

don't leave texas much but you're gonna come see me at the opry sometime now

2:33:37

100 you gotta come see

2:33:40

me now that i'm a member dude 100 i get to close the show 100 i get to send my

2:33:44

mail there now too

2:33:46

wow legally yeah yeah it's crazy dude hey well it's like all the ogs got their

2:33:49

mail there johnny and

2:33:50

him wow it was like really really cool it's like a super legend there that's

2:33:55

awesome someone wants to

2:33:56

write me a letter suited to the grand old opry oh my god oh dude that's

2:34:03

incredible oh that's

2:34:06

man that's i didn't even dream of it god'll god'll god'll make things bigger

2:34:13

than your dreams

2:34:14

somebody out there right now is dreaming of something and it's too small

2:34:17

dream bigger baby dream bigger baby you know what i mean that's it

2:34:21

let's wrap it up that was perfect way to end this no i love you brother thank

2:34:28

you brother

2:34:29

you

2:34:45

you

2:34:47

you

2:34:47

you

2:34:47

you