Joe Rogan - What Nick Yarris Learned From Being on Death Row

Was that I told the judge to go to hell when he sentenced me to death because he couldn't look me in the face Why do you think that's a mistake? Because he decided to send me to Huntington prison the hardest prison in America. What was he gonna do before that? I don't know, but he made sure I went to the place that they broke you see Huntington was designed as the prison if you Raped another inmate they sent you there. It was the first shoe program in America. It was the first Really what a shoe program a special housing unit or security housing unit words level five supermax you know like Pelican Bay and Your punishment was that you weren't allowed to speak in yourself and if you got caught speaking in yourself they came in with a nurse and After they beat you down She jabs in a ass with Thorazine and they knocked you out for a week and you lost your mind So it was horrible like I told you the first two years of my sentence every day. I kept my mouth shut I didn't care what was done around me or not You weren't allowed to say a goddamn word and amen it and you know a lot of talk to other inmates nothing I dare you to sing happy birthday to yourself like I did I paid for that one They Fucked me up Joe, but I don't care about that look I Realized I was in a race I Had to kill off the person that I was The person that I initially was Upon entering prison was a deceitful lying coward with no foritude because no self-respect resided within me and in utter humbleness I took everything that they did to me and I paid for every window. I broke everything I stole Reliable and Then I started to love myself. I figured ain't get nothing out of this but misery so I'm going out like the dude I'm gonna stand up And I'm gonna speak beautifully on the daily to execute me I'm a walk to that walk man. I'm a do this. I didn't kill that woman, but I damn sure ain't no coward I'm gonna find out everything I can about life and Then I'm gonna face my death I'm gonna do it with Jada V man Like I had this beautiful beautiful speech ready for him, too I was gonna lay it out and just be at peace because I realized there was nothing else to do I Could fight I couldn't argue it didn't matter because God's in control my life And I really believed that I had a choice either be a bitter pill and get sucked dry by all the misery about me Or get my shit right and start loving myself So I taught myself how to speak and overcome this Aphasia that affected me my whole life and I found out that I was giving myself Neuroplasticity healing and I became very graceful and calm in prison. I Was so serene and so powerful. How'd you find out you were giving yourself neuroplasticity healing? I found that out from Robin Sharma Robin Sharma is the foremost authority on Speaking about neuroplasticity healing and when he found about what I speak about He said I am the living embodiment of his teachings that through grace and dignity and kindness I've developed my own charisma that carries me with confidence and that is the description of what he teaches Professionals billionaires everyone to explain neuroplasticity for people neuroplasticity is a reward system within your brain We're in your interactions, especially with other human beings heals you So people who suffer from PTSD people who have had trauma in their lives can actually heal themselves by being meticulously polite and I began all of this when I was released my mother sat me down And she said Nikki Listen to me For you to get out of prison and not be a nice man is a waste of everyone's time Every prayer every time someone called me the mother of a monster every time a woman spit in my face Everything that I went through is a waste of time for you not to be a nice man So I want you to promise me one thing Every day I want you to go out and say yes, ma'am Yes, sir, and thank you because I want you to show respect for who you are in that way They hurt this family badly. It's the only thing I ask. I didn't notice she handed me the tool to healing because neuroplasticity is the self-contrived act of rewarding yourself for being a nice person and My gift over the last 14 years is that I made myself So amazingly pliable and gifted at helping others find the good within them That's the reason I'm truly here today The thing that I've been able to accomplish through my writing and through my efforts is to show people that you take things Personally in life you'd be then a fool Because what you've done is you've taken all the hurts and you've made them to justify Reason why you have to be an asshole to somebody Whereas you keep forgetting that you've been given a break over and over just to be here, man Dude, I've been shot stab strangled run over by a car I hung myself in prison to drug overdoses and I had a cannibal trying to murder me for two solid years. I Know that I could fall at any moment from my own hand But God bless me. I believe so much in my purpose in life that I won't kill myself I won't give up and it's only because I've been tested that I know That it has to be for a reason