Joe Rogan Remembers Brody Stevens

We just lost Brody Stevens just died. Yeah, he got off his hands. He didn't like the way it felt to be on them. You know, he's so hard. That's such a hard one to take because everyone loved that guy. And to think that everyone, I mean, he has no haters. I don't know, a single person was like, that guy was a dick. No, no, no, no one. Everyone loved him. He did everybody really hard. Yeah, from close friends to people who just knew him a little bit. Like, I knew him just a little bit. He was so sweet, but he was so tortured. He was just in pain all the time. And it's just so strange that you think the thing that people like most is for other people to love them and care about them. And everybody loved Brody. But yet, he just couldn't go on. But I've never known Brody to have a relationship. Never known him to have a special someone in his life. And I mean, that alone probably be very, very depressing. Well, especially if everyone loves you, but you don't feel connected to any of them. Like how empty that feels. And that's the core of depression. That's fame. But it's also the core of depression. Having had depression, one of the things that hits you is that feeling you just can't connect. And was yours coming about when your first marriage was breaking up? I mean, I have lifelong depression, but I didn't get it treated until that point when I was like, you know, it was like, yeah, because the marriage was breaking up and I had to fly to like Africa twice in a month to see my kids. Do you remember the time that I protected a reporter from you? Oh, at the TCAs. Yeah. He was on malaria medication and drinking, which apparently enough to listen to you. So super sweet, kind Dave was going to kick someone's ass. And I literally had to like hold on to him. I kind of want to see that. Yeah. Oh, and I had, because that was the other thing. I'd just been flown to Africa twice and I just got back. We did the TCAs. And I think I also threw a glass at... Oh, fuck, I'm blanking on his name. Tony. Tony. Tony. Tony. Jesus. Yeah, fuck, I'm blanking too. I'm probably... Nice guy. Sorry, dude. Randall. Tony. Jesus. I love Tony. Tony's a great guy. But I was like out of my skull and I just... Yeah. Well, that was a reporter I tried to... You took his tape recorder and dunked it in his glass. Oh my God. And threatened to kick his ass. Yeah. Because I was drunk. Yeah. And yeah, I was like, oh my God, do I have to do something? Sorry, I missed it. I was like, I have to stop this. This is crazy. I can't believe this is happening. Stepped in. That's nice. Yeah. Well, and it was after that that I went on the antidepressants because I crashed really hard after that. And it was like, well, things are... Yeah, you were... I said, I can't go to work. It can't do anything. You were experiencing that combination, apparently, of the malaria medication and alcohol. It was like a crazy combination. Yeah. And then you got to that jet lag and the trauma of being separated from my kids. Yeah. Yeah. The malaria pills on their own make you mentally... Well, the thing is, I left Harari to the sound of my eldest child screaming, Daddy, don't go. Which even now I can't talk about. Woo. Yeah. God. God. See, it's not worth having kids. No. No, it isn't. Yeah. Do you have none? I have one. Do you have one? I have a 17-year-old. Yeah. It's good. They're on their own now, basically. In the year, you could just write them off. Yeah. That's right. Next year, he's going to college. Yeah. But anyway, if you are out there, get on meds and stay on them. Yeah. Like Brody should have stayed on his meds. Well, you know, I just... I wish we could have all known how he was and how close he was to that. Yeah. Well, that's the thing. It's like people think like suicide... Things like if you're close to suicide, it's the most rational choice you'll ever make when you're that close. It just seems like the most sensible way to deal with the issue. But you gotta stop this because it's otherwise it's too much pain. Yeah. I heard someone describe it as... It's not even an emotional decision. It's not burning. It's jumping out of a burning building. Yeah. It's like there's that choice into the burning building or... Yeah. What's that feeling where you go, this is not an emotional decision I make? There's no choice. I've had two friends hang themselves this year. Yeah. Wow. Yeah. That is... I never thought I would ever say that. I never thought that that would be a way that people would be going out either. Yeah. I remember we had Drake say there. Yeah. Oh, he was hard. That was a hard one. I knew Drake back in the... But essentially my open mic days. Yeah. He was an established comedian in Boston and I was just starting out. Oh, yeah.