Blaire White Tells Joe About Her DMT Experience

But this is another one of the really big realizations I had doing DMT. So we should talk about that. So since doing DMT, which I did it two weeks ago, I did it twice in two weeks, I had this overwhelming sense of like, some people do DMT and then they start seeing people as NPCs. I've heard that talked about. Like they start seeing people as like, these are not real people with souls and like, that's strange to me. Who said that? I see it all the time. And people's like, I've had friends that do it and they start seeing people as NPCs based on what kind of trip they had. Like if they saw the elves or didn't, if they just saw cool colors or didn't. And for me, I- Wait a minute, wait a minute. So you're saying that if people have a DMT trip and they didn't see the elves and they think of that person who had that DMT trip as an NPC. As like an NPC, like you don't have like a soul because you didn't really connect with like any beings, you just saw pretty colors like a, you had a very simple experience, you know what I mean? But I had the opposite from after doing a new DMT. I see so much more humanity in everyone I'm around. Like I feel very changed after doing DMT. It's a very profound experience. And like, I'm just noticing more things about people. I'm being more aware of like their body language when they talk to me. And it's, I think it was a very positive thing doing DMT. And my experience was the closest thing to a spiritual experience I've ever had. Because I've never been a person that's been terribly connected to like anything larger than me. I'd never been religious, never been spiritual. And I'd say it was the closest to like a spiritual thing for me. I think it is a spiritual thing. I think it's an undeniably spiritual thing. That's the thing about it is that it forces you to think about love and connection and then the bonds that people have with each other in a way that you don't get from anything else. The powerful experience of a transcendent psychedelic moment is, it's not like anything else you experience in life other than maybe like a near death experience. But you could argue that they're the same thing. I know people that have had near death experiences that swear that it was like a DMT trip. I'm sure. And I don't think it's confirmed, but people say that it's what happens when you legally die or medically die. It's like you have a DMT trip. And I could see that. It's not confirmed, but there's a lot of evidence that points to that. I could see that. And it in a way made me like less fearful of death. Because I was like, this is what happens at the end. It's a great feeling. I'm OK with it going out like that. Like you just get this for me, at least when I first was hitting it and then like you start to leave the planet. I felt like this intense like set of rings going around my body, like of just warmth and like happiness and love. And then all of a sudden I'm like in space and I did see an elf, which is what people call them. What did it look like? Kind of like a court jester and had like a long arms. And it sounds like crackhead shit if you'd ever done DMT. I know not to use it to a lot of people have a shared like physical description of what these things look like. One of my most profound experiences, there was a bunch of court jesters give me the finger. Just flipping you off like, fuck you openly mocking me. And I was like, what? Killing your ego. Well, I realize I take myself too seriously, like as they were doing it, I was like, I know what you're saying. And they went like this, like, that's it. I like I got it. Like while they were doing, I was like, I get it. I get it. Yeah. That's the thing is like they are a common experience. People who meet the elves or the jesters, wherever you want to call them, they have like something to like teach you. So for me, it was kind of similar to learning not to take myself seriously, but it was more so. Don't take life so fucking seriously. Trust the process of life because I'm someone who even though I'd like to think I have my life pretty together, I still worry about everything so much all the time. I'm always stressed out. And the elf was telling me like, does everything have to be a fight player? Is everything a war? Are you worried about everything? Like kind of clowning me a little bit, literally, because it's kind of clownish. Like really, is everything that serious? Yeah. And I was like, yeah, I'll just chill out. Yeah. And it was like that simple. Like, OK, I'll chill. It's it's good that you can grasp that and have that experience and learn from it because a lot of people can't. And that's when they have bad trips because they try to fight it and they try to resist. No, I don't want to fight anything. And then all of a sudden you're in this fucking death spiral. That was my mistake with shrooms. I did shrooms about a year ago. It was actually when I was evacuating because the riots went up with some friends in the mountains. Let's do shrooms. And it was my first time doing it. And the person who was supplying said shrooms basically gave me a huge plate like this big, stacked it, covered it in shrooms, and said eat all of them, which is very irresponsible for someone's first time. I don't know. I just know it was a plate covered in shrooms. Show me the size of the plate. Give me an example. Oh, my God. So this was like a dinner plate. Like when you go to like Ruth's Chris and have a steak. Yes. Yes. But it was shrooms and I have never done shrooms in my life. I had no because until you do a psychedelic, you have no concept of psychedelic. Like weed isn't anything close to it. And I'm the same planet. So I ate all of it. We walked down to the water and then the whole world changed. But the difference between shrooms and DMT is like to me with shrooms, you're still on Earth, even though Earth's heavily distorted. And that's because you have your eyes open and you're walking around. That's true. DMT, you leave Earth. If you were in silent darkness, if you were alone by yourself in the dark and you were laying down on mushrooms and just closed your eyes, it'd be very similar. Oh, OK. That makes sense to me. Yeah. We were walking around and there's something about doing it. Like we were in this neighborhood in Big Bear with all these like cabins and like I was started getting so freaked out that everyone was just watching from their houses. And it was me and five people. And so we were all tripping, walking back to the cabin from the water, holding hands, walking slowly. And I was like, they probably are. Look at these freaks holding hands. No, yeah, for sure. And we were all like social media people or whatever. We were like, people are going to film this. It's going to be on YouTube tomorrow. Wow. Fun. Yeah, I wouldn't have been ashamed. It's it's not the best idea to do that publicly. A lot of people wind up doing that. They do it publicly and they trip balls and they walk around or to eat a whole fucking plate. Yeah, I should have had one little shroom. That's a good way to start. Yeah. A good way to start is like one and you get like a little feeling, maybe like like a do a gram, you know, nothing crazy before you want to get into like the three to five gram like yikes. I think it's also very important to do it when you're maybe in a good place in life. Like I would never want to do it if I was in a bad place. Like when I did shrooms, half of my trip was really, really scary and really bad because I was in a bad mindset. Like L.A. was on fire. I was escaping. I felt unsure about the world. Right before we tripped, it was like a news report like Trump going into a bunker as protesters to send upon the White House. And I was like, let me escape this. I don't I don't think it's good to use it like as escapism. Shrooms have to go to a bunker. Is that real? I think they I think he denied it after that. But I remember in D.C. when it was the riots happening and I think they moved Trump to a safe place. I'm sure he would deny it. But but when I did DMT, I did it very recently and I'm in like one of the best places of my life recently, like I'm in a new city that I'm actually really enjoying, even though it was a tough transition at first. Been through a couple of those. But I'm just very happy. So I wasn't escaping anything else. Like teach me what you have to teach me. Right. Yeah. And then the second time it went even further. But it's it's very bizarre that it's so there. It's so easy to get to. It's just 15 seconds away. It's one of the most insane experiences that a human being could possibly encounter. Yeah. It's if that was a if there was a thing that you could do like a ride at Disneyland, it would be a mile long, mile long line to get into that fucking thing. Right. Everybody would be like, I want to go on that ride. Right. Because it's so fucking crazy. Yeah. And just the fact that I don't know. So I had a lot of resistance towards ever trying psychedelics for a while because I did grow up in a household where everyone was addicted to drugs and my brother was in prison for selling drugs and heroin and all that kind of shit. Right. So I was like, I'm never going to do drugs. But then like I just see psychedelics a bit different. It's not it's not meth. It's not any of that shit. They are very, very, very different. Yeah. It's a whole different thing. And like it's really hard to even articulate what the trip is with DMT specifically without ever doing it. So like people were talking about the elves and I was like, y'all are crackheads. Don't tell me about some fucking how old about to meet. The problem with the term drug is it's all it's a blanket term that you could use for caffeine. I use for nicotine use for alcohol. Yeah. There's a lot of drugs. Yeah. Adrenaline's a drug. Well, I'm sure it's possible. I can't imagine after now doing DMT twice. I can't imagine someone becoming addicted to it. Oh, I know about that. I know a guy who was a tattoo artist that was doing DMT every fucking day. And then finally the entities had to sit him down and go, hey, motherfucker, stop, stop. Like you're going to lose your grip on this world. Wow. They literally told him to stop doing it. He said, see, it's such an intense experience for me that I couldn't imagine why not every day. It's kind of like I did it and I'm good for a while. This guy's an intense guy. That's fucking nuts. He's a wild dude. He's an artist who does bio mec tattoos. You know that bio mec type of art. You know, bio mec CD Google like bio mec art. My buddy has a sleeve done by this dude. His his arts incredible. Oh, okay. That makes sense. But his is more like that, like that exactly like that. So it's like almost like alien. That's cool. Yeah. Like that kind of shit. That's that's a certain certain style of tattooing called bio mec. And this dude was fucking he's well, he is still elite at it. That's a cool thing to specialize in that type of tattoo. Yeah, that's a little different. That's not that's more like it. That's more like it. That kind of it's all this weird sort of alien looking fucking trippy. I would imagine you have to be an intense guy to even know how to do that. So yeah, well, it's also to specialize in that one particular style. Of art. It's like his vision of life was like, oh, fuck up and distorted and twisted. One of the people I did DMT with wasn't told to like, not do DMT anymore by the house, but was told, like, you know, you don't have to come back anymore, almost in a gentle way. We came out of our trips. And the friend was like, they told me I don't have to come back anymore. I'm like, how many times you've done it? He's like nine. I'm like, maybe take a break, then. I've done it. I've done it more than nine. Yeah. Yeah, I think I haven't done it a couple years, though. So maybe I could get back in there. And have a conversation. But the like I said, the last time that I did it was probably the most intense and the most weird because when they were giving me the finger, but it was like, I've never liked, but it's just, I think sometimes what we what people do and what I've certainly done is you protect yourself from criticism or you protect yourself from your own analysis of your your correct and incorrect thoughts and actions by bullshitting yourself. And one of the ways that you realize if you're bullshitting yourself is like, how do you react to satire? How do you react to being mocked? How do you react to people not taking you seriously? Do you go, as their prerogative? Good luck. Or do you go, fuck them. I'm going to fucking make a response video. Right. You know, the aliens or the whatever they were, the jesters, and they all had the little bells, the little hats. Yeah, it's so crazy. They look like little courtyard. It's nuts. But they were going like this. Fuck you. And they were openly mocking me. And my initial response was, hey. And then I realized like, oh, no, like, that's it. You got it. I was like, kind of sarcastic. Oh, yeah. Well, they know you're bullshit. They know all of your nonsense. They know all of your thoughts. They know. I mean, whatever the fuck they are, whether they're a part of your consciousness or whether these are intelligent entities in another dimension that you're interacting with. See, that is what I've been questioning since doing this. So I was told by a friend who's done DMT a lot that after you do DMT, pay attention to the real world. And if you believe that the elves are real beings that are independent of something created in your own brain due to the DMT, they'll like send you a sign. Right. And I was like, again, crackhead shit. No, I'm not going to meet the elves in real life. Right. Right. So one of the things in my first trip that they kept telling me was this is not the end. This is not the end. They kept telling me that because I think I was asking them like, is this what happens when you die? Like, what is this? They said the phrase, this is not the end multiple times. Directly after the trip, we go to a restaurant. And I wasn't liking the energy. Like, those are like a glow after DMT that you kind of want to maintain. And I didn't like the energy in the first restaurant. So I was like, let's leave. Went to another restaurant. What was wrong with the energy? The people were just weird. I don't know. It's like, you create like a bubble when you do it with like friends and you're like, I don't like what they might do to our bubble. So then we go to another restaurant. And there's a huge sign that just says this is not the end on the thing. And I'm like, whoa, what? And then I looked at my friend who told me to look for signs. And he's like, told you. So I'm like, I mean, I'm not saying that I think that they really are beings. I'm going back and forth between that.